Couches

sebenarnyer banyak yang aku nak blog dan nak merapu, berikut hanyalah satu rapuan sahaja...

Hmmmmmm, dah hari sabtu dah, as I was telling sri yesterday, kalau nak menyesal dah arinie tak guna, studying this few days ( sabtu, ahad, isnin) won’t make any difference anyway, baik aku nyesal ari isnin, barulah berbaloi mnyesal aku kan???? Sementara itu, biarlah diri ini bersuka-ria bagai nak rak, lagi pun exam tak der dalam mase terdekat nie…wekekkeke.

Well anyway , entry nie berkenaan dengan cuti aku dua minggu nie yang I ould say is interesting, sebab memang aku cuti tahap maksima. Sempena cuti kali ini , I made my way to almost every persons house, including pergi limerick DUA kali tuh!!!! Kagum aku dengan diri aku …..

At least dapatlah aku merase hidup ala-ala kaum travellers-lah kan , from one house to one house ….berikut adalah list rumah-rumah yang sempat aku melabuh bontot:

Rumah paan
Rumah leia
Rumah Oni ( 2malam)
Rumah Emmarina
Rumah Sri

Sempat jugaklah aku merase pakai scrub serta menghabiskan beras di rumah-rumah terbabit ( evil siot-wekkekekekekeke)

Sleeping at each house, I got a chance to sample each house’s couch. Badan aku nie dah terase macam bentuk couch-lak. I would have to say, of all the houses, Apartment 29’s couch was the best , as it was either plush or memang berpuaka. The colour of the couch was red, thus complementing the surroundings which was white in nature. White colour, is the colour of melatonin containing substances, like milk which induces the sleep centre in the midbrain, hence leading to sleep. On top that , the pillows were ‘empuk’ and the main 2 seater was human size.

Emmarina’s couch on the other hand was okay, the surface was a little on the cold side, hence anyone sleeping on it would need sort of a throw on it first. Sri’s couch….hmmm, was not bad a well, I suppose due to wear and tear effect ( apelagi sri, tahun depan couch baru) , couch tuh jadi makin sedap, there are certain areas yang tak rata, so kalau tido, sengetlah sikit badan. Oni’s couch on the other hand, was brand new! So keraslah sikit, rase cam tidor kat atas lantai , but it was okay. Leia couch….hmmmmmmm, okaylah, not bad, cuma tak muat badan aku....

All in all I would like to thank-you everyone who was kind enough to accommodatE aku and thus let me menjalankan research nie….wekekekekekkekekekekeke ( ketawa evil)

nicely written

found this while blog hopping just now- nicely written by a mom of 2 suffering from mesothelioma


This are my recaps of 2005......
January: I never realized what was coming a head this year. My life changed in an instant.

February: I found out I had Mesothelioma. It's a rare cancer caused by Asbestos. I flew to
Singapore for my PET Scan. Came back and started off with 6 rounds of my chemotherapy.

March-April-May-June-July: I was in and out of the hospital doing my chemotherapy. Mid July flew to Singapore for PET Scan and Sydney for 2nd Opinion.

End July - August: My family and I flew to Sydney. My life changed. August 2nd: I went through a radical major surgery called "pleuropneumonectomy" where they took out my right lung, right pleura, right diaphragm and lining of the heart. I am now left with one lung. I am still breathing and will keep on breathing till my last breath.

This is my fate and I have accepted it with an open heart. I am not afraid of my fate. There is always a reason for everything that happens in our lives. We move on and learn through our past. We learn to forgive and accept the past. We learn about how our life is precious. We learn to be more spiritual and being closer to ALLAH. We have learn to fight and I shall keep on fighting.

September: I was recuperating from the major surgery and preparing my self for the radiotherapy by the end of the month. I didn't see my husband for a month! Another challenge ALLAH gave me which involves my whole family-parents-siblings. It was very hard for me to handle especially when I just had a major operation and recuperating from it.

October: I went through 25 rounds of radiotherapy. My husband came and visit me over the weekends. (Not every week though. This is not K.L-JB). Then, 30th October I flew back home 3 days before Hari Raya. I was so desperately wanting to go back home.

November: I celebrated Hari Raya with my family and relatives. This year Hari Raya meant a lot to me and my family. We also trade in our 4WD for an MPV so that we have more comfort. I also had shinles.

December: I'm on remission since then. I go for my medical check up every month. My son had a very bad case of food poisoning. My daughter and husband was infected with the same virus which caused my son's food poisoning.

Side effects after surgery: Your body feels totally alien/different. The numbness and sudden off and on sharp pain caused by the nerves being cut stays on. You wonder about your body more. The anxiety somehow is still there from time to time. Your mind wonders but you try and think positive and pray for the best. You tend to be a bit forgetful at time due to all the medication you've been taking for the past 10 months.

I try to maintain a healthy living and try not to give up even though my mind tends to wonder which is common for every one who have had cancer and goes through major surgery and now on remission.

What we need to keep on surviving: Happy thoughts, laughter, being happy, being positive, surrounded by positive vibes, encouragement, self pampering when needed, stress-free environment, help us live a normal life (or almost normal for people like me), always being surrounded by family and friends and many more which can help us heal ourselves better.

december 17, 2005

Today’s already Friday, god I can’t believe it that my so called two week holidays are already coming to an end. I feels like baru yesterday did I pass thru Mr. Buckley’s room in the MERCY on this day last 2 weeks dengan hati yang penuh gumbira knowing that i’m gonna have a full two week holiday. Little did I know that the two weeks are gonna pass like its two hours. Well anyway, this year I decided against leaving the island ( like what I’ve been doing each time Christmas comes) dengan alasan wanna stock up things for my so called ‘future house’in the years to come, which is obviously odd since most of my friends in my batch are travelling like hell or deciding to get married or not.

Well it’s true that travelling is indeed interesting, and yes I like travelling a lot, however when you' ve been to most countries in western Europe, going to other countries just seem boring , as most countries look the same, it’s a matter of whether you get to take a picture with Eiffel tower on the background or the Brandenburg gate at the back. Lainlah kalau pergi to Australia or US or Africa-kan?

where it all happend

Well enough of that, after four weeks of the mental ward kat the mercy hospital, I was literally going ‘ku-ku’ as well on top. I would have to say jumpe orang gila is very interesting, it’s sort of vague in nature and never have I seen such debilitating diseases ( skizo, depression,dementia) that affect almost every aspect of the sufferer’s life. Me and ezrin, we were attached to a particular Dr. C who was literally busy all the time , if not most of the time.

We did not get to see much patients as Dr. C did not have that much patients himself, however we did have A LOT OF tutorials everyday, YA ALLAH! The tutorial were so long ( 3 HOURS PEOPLE ) between me, ezrin and him. The tutorial would be soooo long that in the middle of it your eyes just feels like closing, as in my case , aku akan sangatlah mengantuk sampai mata nie rase nak terjuling. To make matter’s worse, this particular Dr. C was crossed eyed as well ( juling-lah) , lagilah payah , coz aku nie jenis yang bile bercakap dengan org , aku akan buat eye contact ( rapport-lah katakan) ; sebab tak tahu dia tengah pandang sape and dia tengah tanye soalan kat sape ( me or ezrin).

chaos before sriabe's arrival

One thing yang aku tak puas hati dengan mamat Dr. C is dia bagi aku-nyer attendance as good, when then next best option is excellent ; sedangkan rotation nie, aku diligently pergi dengan penuh semangat , langsung tak ponteng for the full four weeks; bukanlah aku nak kerek ker ape, but aku ingat lagi time dia mark akunyer assessment paper depan aku and dia bulatkan option (GOOD) instead of (EXCELLENT) pecah hati aku…serious people, it was THE MOMENT ; THE MOMENT when your head just goes like ‘ babi-sial!!!’….the last ‘babi-sial’ moment I had was probably with emmarina’s DR. W, the minute he accused me of not eliciting the patients name while taking his history.

Well, talking about ‘babi-sial’ moments , few months ago while having our practical procedures course at the Brookefield Complex, Rob Gaffney the director of the course was kind enough to invite us for tea and scones that was initially for a group of dr’s having some neonatal course at the complex as well. The ‘babi-sial’ moment came when I was just about to take some scones, when out of nowhere this ( hippo-impregnanted- as in she was like BMI tinggilahkan- sib baik aku slim ) lady came and said something which sounded like, ‘ excuse me, that’s not for you, that for the people doing the course,’ , and later added ,’you COME TO MY PLACE, and you finish my food,’ . Aku memang terkejut giler sampai tak terkata, luckily my group-mate Clare was there and she was like, ‘ MAS, you did not hear that,’ berkali-kali …..aku dalam hati was so like ‘babi-sial’ makcik nie , sib baik jer BMI terover, kalu tidak dah lame aku %$*ol.

sri's chestnut cake!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well enough of that , sebelum aku start cuti banyaklah bende yang aku nak buat sepanjang cuti, among others;

TAMBAH BERAT BADAN ( see shaz, aku adelah jugak cita2 nak ade BMI normal ( soooo tercapai)
Workout ( uweeekk, rase nak muntahlah pulak!!!- wekekekeke , jangan jeles)-sekali jer sepanjang cuti nie pergi panjat bukit kat mardyke
Stadi ( langsung tak tercapai)
Kawen dengan emmarina ( I think dah about 3453438 times aku tanye dia-but still no answer
Beli barang rumah ( obviously tercapai- sume Sri punyer pasal )

Iiiiyerslah, manusia hanya merancang tuhan lah yang menentukan……..

My holidays started early, Friday tuh dah takder class, so the evening was preety boring while waiting for leia to pic me up. Kalaulah aku tau mamat DR. C tuh nak bagi aku good untuk kedatangan aku dah lame aku ponteng hari jumaat tuh pergi Limerick , at least I can help shaz with the cooking or shopping. I can’t remember what time we bertolak from cork , but yang pastinyer it was already dark.

We were really eager to sampai Limerick early, yang pastinyer kenelah sampai lagi awai dari befday girlkan, i can’t remember how many times paan and shaz called leia to ensure that we were on the way. We arrived at apartment 29 ( dunno if you noticed tak , but 29 is also the same number of Lando’s apartment in Ungu Violet) we were greeted by shaz and paan whowas busy ensuring everything was in place for the big surprise. Tanpa melengahkan masa lagi, emmarina , leia and paan got to work ensuring that sri’s ( HAPPY 50th befday ) banner was in place.

shaz getting ready for the morning

Shaz pulak sibuk dengan ising and cake chestnut sri yang at that time was still not ready. Kelibut jugaklah keadaan time tuh ,macam dalam ERlah pulak.Well anyway, the actually takat panic came when paan got a call from abe, saying that they were close to limerick. Barulah sume orang nak panic, especially shaz (tukang buat cake) yang panicnyer sampai nak terkencing! Paan with leia’s help on the other hand was busy concocting some bizarre plan to delay Sri’s arrival.

in the chaos he still was able to go boho ( ala Sienna Miller)
Nasib baiklah cake sempat siap sebelum sri abe sampai ……...sempat jugaklah Sri sambut befday!!!!
Paling tak larat was the actual surprise thingy- siap tutup lampu lagi……kalau stakat kak Aji tak heranlah, tapi DENGAN KAK TOH PON JOIN skali SIOT!!!!!!!-----MAJU!!!!!

tuan rumah still managed to croon us a few hits that morning ( burger on the right, mike on the left-multitasking hah!!!) , also leia cutting cucumber ( hmmmmmm???)

Hari yang berikutnyer was also an occasion to remember as banyak sangat orang datang. People started trickling in one by one in the afternoon, and by about 3 , PAAn’s bachelor pad was sesak dengan makcik-makcik and pakcik-pakcik serta budak-budak kecik ( arghrrr!! Pollution) dari sekitar limerick. And yang kelakarnyer, time tuh , only the tuan rumah was dressed in baju melayu and DAH SIAP MANDI, yang lain sume still in scrubs ( read : busuk- kecuali your truly-lah, I DO NOT SMELL-wekekekekeke-ketawa evil) . Bile orang datang, barulah kecoh nak mandi. From then on, people started coming in non-stop, sampai makanan pon tak cukup and kena masak second round. I guess the company was good, the food was soo excellent and people just enjoyed it soo much that they just couldn’t stop eating. …………people were just having tooo much fun, at least I was!

Well anyway, the mayhem started to slow down by about 11pm- for the guess at least, as untuk saki-baki yang tinggal , the fun was just starting – kareoke. YES people, we had a non-stop kareoke session that night- supplemented by a tabletop dance and ballet routine performance.

The next morning, again it was kareoke and later on we headed to kAk Aji’s house , where we had a shock-sendiri picture taking session.

at kak Aji house : well at least some people had fun

Well anyway, all and all we indeed had an enjoyable weekend that week-which would obviously not happen if not for the tuan rumah no. 29 ( tall,dark and hansem)* and the cook (sexy bitch)* .

well i guess , tuan rumah was really tired at the end of the day

* hmmmm …????

masyaallah......penatnye!!!!

i was so damn excited yesterday as it was the last on call i have to do untill god knows when. finally it's happening, i find it hard to believe myself that i don't have a job for the next 6 months. Of course i kept telling people that taking some time off and do some locum jobs anywhere in the country were the plan but as it about to happen i'm kinda scared. as if a groom has cold feet right before the wedding. i wish i didn't have to go through with it but it's not a matter of choice anymore. well i guess i just have to face it anyway....man this sounds way better in my head when i was thinking about it a year ago. oh well what's the worst that could happen besides getting really really broke and deported back home for being dependant to state's dail. could be a bliss!! by the way as i was saying last night was my last on call and masyaallah the busiest it has been in ages!!!! penat nak mampos!!!! so typical of me i kinda saw this coming anyway but still a quiet call would be nice. non-stop referral of genuinely sick patients, already sick patients got sicker in the wards, basically last night was mayhem like a blood bath in the hospital. thank god my surprisingly nice reg and consultant dropped by and actually saw those patients and helped me clearing out the surgical referral box, otherwise i would've still down in the torture crypt at this time. i'm knackered and if i was at all like the irish i would've have gone to the pub and load myself with massive amount of C2H5OH now, fortunately to everyone's dissappointment i'm nothing like that at all :-) i'm gonna go home soon and get some sleep which is i may add is not even beauty sleep, this one is obligatory. tomorrow will be my last day and hope it will be the start a of a new beginning for me in more ways than one.......

Pemuda mahu cium ular tedung selar 50 kali

KANGAR 27 Dis. - Seorang pemuda dari Utan Aji di sini, bakal mencipta rekod dunia jika berjaya mencium ular tedung selar sebanyak 50 kali dalam tempoh 10 minit seperti yang dirancangnya.
Jika berjaya, nama Shahimi Abd. Hamid, 32, bukan sahaja akan dicatatkan dalam Guinness World Book of Records, malah mendapat pengiktirafan daripada Ripley's Believe It Or Not.
Bekas petugas Taman Ular Perlis (TUPs) itu akan menggunakan segala pengalamannya termasuk dipatuk ular beratus kali untuk mencipta rekod itu.
Kejayaannya nanti akan memadamkan rekod seorang rakyat Amerika Syarikat (AS) yang mencium ular sebanyak 11 kali tetapi tiada had masa.
Menurut Shahimi, aksi beraninya itu akan dilakukan pada 11 Mac tahun depan di Muzium Ripley's Believe It Or Not di Hotel First World, Genting Highlands.
Jelasnya, ular tedung yang akan dicium nanti bukannya ular milik beliau tetapi ular liar yang disediakan sendiri oleh pihak pengurusan rancangan Ripley's Believe It Or Not.
``Ia adalah ular liar dan pihak pengurusan rancangan itu akan menyediakan ular yang saya tidak tahu sejauh mana bisanya.
``Saya mempunyai pengalaman 10 tahun dan telah beratus kali dipatuk ular. Pengalaman itu akan saya jadikan semangat untuk mencipta rekod dunia nanti,'' katanya pada sidang akhbar di TUPs, di sini hari ini.
Hadir sama ialah Pengurus TUPs, Tengku Noriah Tengku Mahmud dan Penolong Pengurus Muzium Ripley's Believe It Or Not Genting Highlands, Adha Osman.
Shahimi berkata, sebagai persediaan, beliau akan menjalani aktiviti senaman khas dan mengambil ubat-ubat serta antibodi sebelum melakukan aksi tersebut.
Ini kerana, ujarnya, selain mencipta rekod, beliau juga akan membuat pertunjukan dengan membiarkan tangannya dipatuk ular berkenaan.
Sementara itu, Adha memberitahu, orang ramai boleh menyaksikan aksi Shahimi dengan mengunjungi muzium berkenaan yang berkeluasan 12,000 kaki persegi.
``Pihak kami juga sedang mencari stesen televisyen yang berminat untuk menyiarkan aksi Shahimi, malah aksi beliau bakal ditonton di seluruh dunia melalui rancangan tersebut,'' tambahnya


sometimes i just really really wonder why people ( read : malaysianS-kalau more specific-melayu)) would be so facinated with things like this.

My heavens, the last time i was in malaysia, terkejut jugaklah tengok the amount of tabloids sold at book stores.
Even Borders kat berjaya times square pon ader jual tabloid melayu.......its really funny that melay people will be so captivated with stuff like :

' polong hisap darah bayi di bentong'
'PEMANDU TEKSI jumpa pontianak di kajang'
'pelajar jumpa hantu tetek di tepi jalan'
'toyol di jalan kelang lama'
'mayat bertukar menjadi babi'

and the latest as you guys can see it ...nak cium ulo ( vocalised like 'misha omo')
lah pulak kan......

and ya , not forgetting the bigfoot scare recently ( read utusan malaysia for further information) in bentong.........

the da vinci code teaser!!!

talk about forbidden love........

the other night i went to see king kong, was entertaining and enjoyed it very much, the movie was ok but the company i went to the movies with were better. with couple of friends, stuffed ourselves with great food syaznay cooked (as always) first then off to the cinema. since we had 30 minutes left before the show starts we figured where else can we go to kill the time so we went to mc donnald's and there we went having ice cream sundaes and coffee, basically i was ready to go to sleep with overly bloated stomach when we got our seats in the theatre. nevertheless i was awake the whole time during the show, it was nothing compared to any of the LOTR trilogy then again it was indeed full with action sequence that kept my ass off the seat most of the time. kinda weird since it has so few lines for a movie that runs almost 3 hours long.

it didn't occur to me that the ape actually likes the girl (naomi watts) until at the middle of the story. i kinda knew how the story goes just never realize it in my mind, the thing is i can't help myself but wonder in what way actually this unmistakeably tall, dark and hairy stud feels about the girl and vice versa. maybe they look at each other as pets or maybe long lost friends nothing more....or is it? talk about forbidden love! well the way i see it this scary big beast was missunderstood, underneath the tough and gigantic exterior lies a very lonely heart, i suppose he longs for company and being the only giant gorilla there well go figure, (i wonder what happened to the rest of his species maybe he's the acromegallic or gigantism in gorilla)

as usual greed in human nature ruins all and the poor ape reached his doom the moment he laid eyes on the girls, bitten and fighting the T-rexs, the giant bats and the army. he should've eaten or crushed her when he got the chance rather than playing with her. it's more like beauty and the beast story and in my humble opinion the movie was ok and a piece of entertainment worth checking out.
oh yes, the da vinci code trailer shown before the movie was awesome can't wait till may 19 next year!

it's quiet for a change....

yes finally a little peace and quiet for me today, can stretch my legs and take it easy for the day. as christmas approaching you wouldn't believe how everything in this hospital almost at a standstill, people more relaxed and simply don't wanna do any work. yes, the party and holiday moods have finally reached their therapeutic level. i guess that's a good thing. at least the giving out, roaring and shouting will be kept at a minimum level. i meant to be working on christmas eve, a collegue of mine managed to swap the call 2 days before he went home to malaysia and i did his saturday instead. he paid me back by doing my christmas eve, kinda annoyed at first since you get 9 hours worth of double-pay rate for that day work but now i feel relieved not to have to come to work on that day, well just for a few hours in the morning making sure everyone's ok but still the thought of you gotta work while everybody else is at home having fun, really depressing! i know some of my friends will kill me for saying those stuffs since they are on-call on this weekend. no worries guys, double pay!!!!!! that will keep you guys motivated.
i had a little get together last weekend, boy was i wrecked! and it was nothing compared to syaz who kindly enough to help me out with the cooking, a lil bit of cleaning and "entertaining" my guests (what did i do then?!). to me it was a great weekend although some of my close friends couldn't make it for obvious reason - work and work and work. it was a weekend well spent and i enjoyed it very much. to those who left rather early that day missed a mini concert in the house. boy! you wouldn't believe the talents these "people" have ( sworn to secrecy so no names) you think you know someone but you have no idea that they can even dance on the coffee table, ballet dancing and even sing "bangau oh bangau"!it was a indecribably awesome night. i had fun. the foods!!! my goodness, i can't even begin to describe how good they were. in fact they were so good we have to cook some more in the evening time as my hungry guests cleared up the dishes rather unexpectedly i mean we kinda underestimated our guests' hunger and intake capability hahahahaha!!! i better stop talking about the food, got heartburn as we speak, immediately after thinking about the food, man i'm hungry!! better go look for something to eat and get back to work. well i got things to do as well even it's a quiet day unlike some friends of mine who can leave and go home in the middle of the day. hope it stays this way. i'm gonna have a cup of coffee now........

WELCOME TO WHEREVER YOU ARE

the other night i was feeling really shitty bagai nak rak, turned the tv on and i went to the window, just staring at the darkness outside wondering just what really made this feeling even begins, was having a bad day alright. then for some reason i heard this song playing on tv, wasn't even watching but the words caught my attention and damn right it did make me feel better, so i guess i'd like to share it with you guys, the new single i guess by bon jovi..........

Album: Have A Nice Day
Track: WELCOME TO WHEREVER YOU ARE


Maybe we're all different but we're still the same
We all got the blood of Eden running through our veins
I know sometimes it's hard for you to see
You're caught between just who you are and who you want to be

If you feel alone and lost and need a friend
Remember every new beginning is some beginning's end

Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life; you made it this far
Welcome, you got to believe
That right here, right now
You're exactly where you're supposed to be
Welcome to wherever you are

When everybody's in and you're left out
And you feel you're drowning in the shadow of a doubt
Everyone's a miracle in their own way
Just listen to yourself, not what other people say

When it's seems you're lost, alone and feeling down
Remember everybody's different; just take a look around

Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life; you made it this far
Welcome, you got to believe
Right here, right now
You're exactly where you're supposed to be

Be who you want to be
Be who you are
Everyone's a hero
Everyone's a star

When you want to give up and your heart's about to break
Remember that you're perfect; God makes no mistakes

Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life; you made it this far
Welcome, you got to believe
Right here, right now
You're exactly where you're supposed to be
And I say welcome…
I say welcome…
Welcome…

yumm...

ni khas untuk ema yg teringin tosai...haha...tgk gambar cukup la ye...
ni tosai enak kat the infamous rest. Kayu. waktu aku pegi masa balik msia haritu. nanti kau turun penang aku bawak pi.


this is my sister, tengah menikmati roti canai kosong favourite dia. ( she wont appreciate her picture being in here, but hey, what she doesn't know can't hurt her!)

sunday morning..........

finally come sunday, yes i'm getting outta here, thank god although in less than 24 hours i will be coming back again to this place. it just occured to me that i have only 20 days left working in this place. after 2 years of busting my ass from one specialty to the other, i would be lying if i say i will not going to miss this place, it is like cork, i never consider it as my place of choice to live however i feel attached to it somehow. it grew on me over the years and so did this hospital, without you know it you actually become part of the place and there would be "separation anxiety" like emotion when leaving here. it made me realize though that in my whole life i never got what i wanted....i guess, instead i always end up with the next best thing. as i see it, the end results were not as bad. feels like there was a pattern in life, that throughout the course of your life you can almost predict which path you going to end up with and it just happened. i bet you guys don't have a clue what i'm talking about but it seems to me that's the way my life is to date. i used to be so scared not knowing what's gonna happened in my future, i gotta have a plan and forecast of where would i be, what i'm gonna do and how is it gonna be done but now i couldn't care less of all those s"*t. feels like i have no control at all so why bother. i would blame my job which is distracting and time that moves so fast that goes away while i haven't had time to grasp the reality at that particular moment. just like missing a train that doesn't stop at a station and the only mean to get on it is to hop in and when you keep missing it everytime coz you are not fast enough to catch it the longer it takes to get to the destination and the more stuff that would happen along the journey you're gonna miss. this is sleep deprivation talking well i'm sure nobody would understand anyway. the best thing to do at this moment is to get some sleep and i bet i would want to delete this entry when i read it again later after i gain my sanity back

i can't believe that i have to be in theatre today, again!!!! damn! operating with someone i don't really get along well, not something i'm looking forward to and even worse it's AAA repair, that's 3 hours long torture!!! what else i'm talking about nothing but bitching about work. i have been in theatre all week, i know operating is fun but there's only so much operation one can do a week, those surgeons operate twice per week and right after that they gone while we have to stay back picking up the pieces left behind, monday was urology, tuesday was colorectal, wednesday was vascular and today another vascular, talking about wide exposure!! well now i'm waiting for my locum boss who was suppose to be here err half an hour ago....where is he now? god only knows and knowing me that i have to be somewhere else as well as waiting for him for the round, i become so restless and anxious, man why do i feel this way? they can get someone else to scrub for the case, so i kept telling myself. apparently this guy i'm not seeing things eye-to-eye with can't work with this other guy who actually meant to be there (wonder why)as a result i came to the picture, i feel "honoured". oh well, i just have to put up with it just for a few hours then, (god please grant me strength to go through the rest of the day, to keep awake and to hang on to the retractor throughout the surgery!!)