i was so damn excited yesterday as it was the last on call i have to do untill god knows when. finally it's happening, i find it hard to believe myself that i don't have a job for the next 6 months. Of course i kept telling people that taking some time off and do some locum jobs anywhere in the country were the plan but as it about to happen i'm kinda scared. as if a groom has cold feet right before the wedding. i wish i didn't have to go through with it but it's not a matter of choice anymore. well i guess i just have to face it anyway....man this sounds way better in my head when i was thinking about it a year ago. oh well what's the worst that could happen besides getting really really broke and deported back home for being dependant to state's dail. could be a bliss!! by the way as i was saying last night was my last on call and masyaallah the busiest it has been in ages!!!! penat nak mampos!!!! so typical of me i kinda saw this coming anyway but still a quiet call would be nice. non-stop referral of genuinely sick patients, already sick patients got sicker in the wards, basically last night was mayhem like a blood bath in the hospital. thank god my surprisingly nice reg and consultant dropped by and actually saw those patients and helped me clearing out the surgical referral box, otherwise i would've still down in the torture crypt at this time. i'm knackered and if i was at all like the irish i would've have gone to the pub and load myself with massive amount of C2H5OH now, fortunately to everyone's dissappointment i'm noth
ing like that at all :-) i'm gonna go home soon and get some sleep which is i may add is not even beauty sleep, this one is obligatory. tomorrow will be my last day and hope it will be the start a of a new beginning for me in more ways than one.......
