in this moment....

finding happiness can happen overnight or it will take you years. that's just the way it is. we all have our phases in life. its like a rollercoaster for some , together with its ups and downs , or it could be a breeze yet it all depends on us. life. we make it, and we break it. i've learned that for everything that happens to us, we are the one to be responsible of it.

as a child i was always a happy one. why not, i had almost all that i wanted, everything did go my way. up til my late teens to early twenties life was super breezy, and then, i entered the real world. where i thought nothing was in my control anymore, that people were just out there to hurt me and break me. i learned to become selfish and fight for what i want. sometimes i get, sometimes i dont, and even when i do, i was never happy... well not quite.. i wondered why.

it took me many days, and months, and years to realize that in life, it is not always about what you want, about what you can get, but most often what you can give and what you can do. i learned how to be happy for myself, and for others too. sometimes, in order to see other people be happy, you have to let go , you have to sacrifice. you have to cry and weep, and hope that one day, your turn will come. because for now, it is not your turn... you may not understand, but you will one day... learn not to be selfish and accept that life sometimes doesnt offer you roses and wine all the time and you will find inner peace.

if you get hurt, one way or another, regardless the situation, be patient and strong, for one day, the rain will stop pouring, and the sun will start shining, the rainbow will appear and you'll feel the happiness in your heart, you know this is your time... the one you've been waiting for.

and if there are people out there, trying to hurt you and bring you down, fear not, for as long as you believe in yourself and your loved ones, there is not a thing to be teared apart. you are safe

hurt not another, for it never brings you peace of mind, pray for happiness, for yourself and for another, clean the heart, and the future will be bright of hopes and dreams.

it is not easy , i know, for i've been there before, but i did all that i can, and stayed as strong as i can be, and so here i am... where i really wanna be, as now, today its my turn.......



In true love the smallest distance is too great, and the greatest distance can be bridge - Hans Nouwens

hmmm.......

The vows I take will be forever
I'll love you all my life.
There's no part way, no holding back
Once we are man and wife.

The choice is made, and now I swim
In a far different sea,
The shores of which are bright green hills
Raised up for you and me.

Our love is like a mountainside
Awash in lovely flowers:
It is our home, our solid rock,
Where all bright things are ours.

And though of need we often must
Spend our days apart,
Our love will always be with us,
Held within the heart.

Nicholas Gordon

seasonal greetings

been soooooo long since i contributed to this blog, so i guess being the most readily available at the moment, i guess i kenalah at least jot somethig down.

Yes, its blood hot and dusty, getting use to the malaysian way of negotiating stuff seems quite foreign to me actually.

Just the other day i was kicked/denied entry into one of those imposing buildings in putrajaya for wearing jeans and a T shirt, and slippers, nasib baik i had come prepared, and my dads shoes and baju kemaja yang mak aku amik from dobi was in the car.

I still find it hard to negotiate the mamak stalls/pasar ramadan, ordering stuff still a problem, so because of that its usually my mom/my cousins/shaz or emma who does the orderings...

I'm not sure when to call or address a person abg or encik...the other day at an EON shop i addressed this guy as encik, he said just call him abg and wanted to belanja me kopi..???..funny

Seriously , dunno when im gonna start work, may be like new year, actually kindoff getting use to the routine, i'm such a desperate housewife already in the making.

For the moment its puasa month, so i guess i'm taking it lightly, but having said that , the other day aku pergilah buat kerja giler with a few of my cousins, rock climbing in one utama, lepas bukak puasa, i guess it was too much on me, after about 2 hours , i muntah in the toilet, like on the floor...so embarassing, nasib baik amah tukang bersih toilet was understanding tak marah marah.....horror giler, like cam u people imagine, fellow gym mates were like looking at me dengan jijiknyer.....

anyway, will blog somemore....

lazy saturday afternoon

I’m on my own in the house, as always. It’s noon already but I just couldn’t bring myself to the shower let alone getting off this bed. I’ve forgotten how it feels like to not worry about anything especially work. What would I give to get that feeling again. Seeing kids playing with each other at the playground just outside my house, it made me wonder maybe that’s what they have, that feeling, no worry feeling. Gosh I’ve also forgotten how it feels like to be a kid! In fairness it’s been decades anyway. It brought me back though to a moment I remember it vividly when I was a kid. Maybe around 10 yrs old, 2 decades ago. I was in my bedroom where I shared with my sister and little brother at that time. I was doing some homework, don’t remember what it was but I do remember as I lay there on the bed, again alone, I asked myself what my life would be like in 20 years time? I started imagining myself going to work wearing suits and carrying business bag made of leather, a perfect image like those commercials on TV. Getting off a luxurious car but without a driver, because I always thought I’d like to drive. Having lots of cash in my wallet with a couple of credit cards and be able to buy anything my heart desires. There were plenty other alternates future I imagined myself into. All of them with one theme. Plenty of cash and lavish lifestyle. Well say it what you want I was totally influenced by the lifestyles featured in those commercials at the time

Now that I’ve reached the 20 years later, again I said to myself, which part of those dreams I kept imagining myself in has become reality? Now here’s the depressing part, do I have lots of cash ? nope, do I have a luxury car? Not even close, do I live the way that I picture myself when I was a kid? Don’t even think of it! none of them were even close to what I have dreamed. Life sucks!!! Especially if you a master student in a supposedly “centre of excellence” institution, well that’s a completely different story!

Then I wonder what would a 30 year old me want? I thought about it and it isn’t lot of cash, I can get by with comfortable or even just enough although have plenty of it really a plus, lavish lifestyle…..well I don’t mind if I have the means i.e the abundant $$$$$. Certainly not something I would crave for. Then it dawned on me that all I want is peace of mind and happiness, and it’s different from one person to the other , the definition of happiness I mean. Right now my happiness means that I can live my day to day life with no worries, I can go to work and enjoy what I do and still have whatever little time I have to spend it with my family and friends. Hey don’t think that I’m not ambitious, I am but at this particular moment I would settle for this. I guess I’m tired of being on the move, burnt out would be more politically correct term. What would I give to be like those kids down there happily running around the ground chasing each other that doesn’t seem like having a point at all, kinda like this rambling, pointless but hey it made me feel better J

salam

hello semua,

eeee penatnyer lah keje

aku dah muak dan nak termuntah dah keje

walaupun baru balik 2 minggu , aku sudah boring

arini sangatlah sibuk.....enough said

sekarang aku dalam bilik, tgh main kompiter, tapi ader cerita hantu kat TV yang takut

sooo aku tgh takut sorang sorang, tapi aku nak kencing, tapi takut nk pergi toilet

kenape, sbb semalam certify death patient pukul 330 am dlm bilik single, time check reflexes patient bukak mata secara mengejut..........aku pon terkejut yang sangat terkejut....

aku melaung yang amat!! terus lari ke nurses station, nurses pon takut tgk aku, sbb katanyer aku pucat lesi,siap offer nak buat blood sugar lagi, and offer lucozade.....

anyway, aku still takut nie, aku nyer vegetarian pasta microwave ( tesco finest yer) aku pon dah sejuk.....

tapi aku still nak kencing, tapi takutlah nak gi toilet, camner hah??

patutkah aku tanah jer kencing aku??

takutlah.......

may be aku patut swith to eurovision, channnel lain......

Reunion April 2008 Part 2

So initially plan nya once we are back in KL after that wedding Syaz nak masak2 kat rumah Sri kat Ampang....all of us kumpul dari rumah Mas ke rumah Sri but Mas can't attend la....with Paan nak tgk konsert, Ema nak kena balik pasal nak kerja and study (Ema lagi rajin banding masa student dulu ko tau!) so it was deferred to a later date sometime the same week la....
Last2 it was agreed to have this special 'reunion' dinner Wednesday 30/4 as the day after 1/5 is a public holiday...Hari Buruh/Pekerja.....so kononnya bolehla lepak2 lambat...
So Syaz pon datangla around 12 noon to Ampang...beli2 barang nak masak....dia nak masak seafood...and start la masak lepas Zuhur....Mas datang dari Melaka bawak kereta....Ema and Paan also came...Kak Toh unfortunately has gone back to Chini as she has to prepare for her relative's wedding....so after the usual sesat nak sampai ke rumah Sri ni...Mas sampai ke masjid mana ntah...padahal nearest mosque dari rumah Sri ni adala dekat2 1 km kot...Ema dah 2-3 kali datang pon nak kena kasi direction...Paan boleh tahan for his IQ...sampaila jugak dia...
Anyway we started to eat around 9pm....Menu:

1) Nasi putih
2) Ketam masak ape ntah....tapi sedap
3) Badan Ketam tapi isi telur masak ape ntah....lagi sedap
4) Ikan Masak Sambal....kot....tapi sedap yg amat....
5) Udang Masak Tepung tapi ade campur ape ntah....PALING sedap
6) Sayur....semua hijau and karot...

Semua licin kecuali sayur yg tukang masak abihkan....sorryla takde gambar...nasib baik takde...mana yg baca and then kalau tgk gambar mau mimpi2 kang...Pastu dessert Homemade Tiramisu and tembikai.....
Last sekali kopi nespresso Sri.....yg last ni byk kali last.....pastu lepak2 minum air sirap manis, kurang manis....kiranya last2 ni semuanya minum air sampai kembung....
Macam mana pon it was once of the best meal I had since coming back home....or since Syaz left Cork.....not to insult those yg buat2 makan after Syaz left...but not in terms of rasa...but the atmosphere...the anticipation...lama dah tak rasa...bau masak tu dari Asar lagi...tak sabar2 dibuatnya aku...dahla org2 ni sesat!...heheheh..next time no excuse eh...
We ate and talked like the old days....Unfortunately for Ema she has to go back as she's going to work the following day...and she needs to study...exam in a weeks time...kesian...Ema think hard about your future....don't only think about your job...think bigger...think about your life...what you want to achieve and how you want to achieve it....not your career...your life as a whole...I seriously think if you continue to live like this for the next 2 years....I doubt you will be the same person I knew 2-3 years ago....but hey it is your life and you're a big girl...you know what you want and what you can handle so think wisely....
Entahla aku ni pon kerja pon takde sedap aje bagi nasihat kat org....if it was me what would I do?...I don't know...I guess different ppl has different 'boiling' point....As long as I can spend time with my family, I can raise my children adequately and have enough to sustain them and hopefully adela lebih2 sikit nak berjalan2 or leisure....cukupla...the problem is when is enough is enough...tak pernahnya cukup...ade keta ni nak keta besar lagi...ade rumah apartment nak rumah teres....and then banglo...well that bring us back to 'wasathiyyah'....kesederhanaan...
Bersyukur dgn ape yg ada....I think I learn that the hard way since coming back....From having a house, 2 cars and a well-paid job...now I move between my in law and parents house, borrow my brother's car as he is in Sudan and unemployed......now I know what it is important in life....if my wife was a demanding person which she never was (kembangla tu) sure pening kepala aku...
So learn to appreciate what you have as God may take over in a second....then you know what you are missing....prioritize what you want/achieve....nothing is easy...and the harder you have to try to get something the more you appreciate it...but again nothing is more important than what is the most important for you and in this case for me it is my family.....If what I want to achieve makes me grow apart from my family I definitely would change what I want....but thats me....so ask yourself what you want the most....some ppl can handle the pressure some ppl can't....is the mean worth the result? Only you know the answer to that....Enough of this lets move on shall we?
So Ema left quite early for our standard...pukul berapa ha ko blah Ema? Dalam 11-12 kot...aku tak ingat but I know Syaz, Mas and Pa'an left around 4 am....we talked, drink, watched TV, making stupid jokes (thats Paan of course) the usual hooha like we always did back in Ireland..it was nice.....I'm sure all of us haven't had such time since Ireland days so to have day (or rather night) like this was welcoming....Paan and Syaz saw musang kat atas atap which has been living in one of our neighbour's roof for quite some time...nasib baik si Syaz tak menjerit pasalnya dahla tengah malam....but he did almost scream or a shriek rather as he tried on foot massager....alaa menda yg kat semua mall ade...tempat duduk kulit yg buleh massage tapi ni kaki sahaja....Not only Syaz, Mas and Paan pon menjerit macam jumpa hantu...then tgk Akademi Fantasia la.....last2 tgk music video...biasala kalau Pa'an pegang remote....That was the night nothing really special that we did but for us (at least for me) it was something special....
I don't know when would be the next 'meal' but I hope this would not be the last. However I won't be holding my breath as Pa'an is going to UM (7 days a week working hours), Syaz will be entering his clinical years (ade on-call tu!), Ema sekarang pon susah nak jumpa lagi kan nanti (takkan makin naik year makin relax kot ntahla), Mas ntah ke mana....sekejap nak balik sekejap nak ke Australia...mana2 la ko Mas and me ntah2 dah kerja nak jumpak Sri pon kena buat appointment as Sri pon nak kerja jugak...intern plak tu!
But it never hurts to hope and hope for the best and I really2 hope that the next meal would be at our new home and I am not jobless!

Reunion April 2008 Part 1

Assalamualaikum

Lama betul aku tak tulis kat blog ni. Last sekali aku tulis it was quite controversial if anyone still remembers it....that was eons ago...
Anyway straight to the point...after about 3 months arriving from Ireland, few telephone calls and SMSes at last me, Sri, the kids (Afiq, Natrah and Sofea), Apan, Ema, Syaz and Masz met for the first time in Bukit Baru, Melaka. It was under the pretense of Mas's older brother wedding tapi sebenarnya ko (Mas) nak jumpa kitorang dak? Anyway I forgot to add Kak Toh was also there together with my sister (Fatiha) and Sri's sis (Taty)....oh yea my mak mentua and Ema's parents were also present....We drove at around 12pm from Sri's place in Ampang and arrived around 3.30pm in Melaka (Lama tu pasal nak amik si Fatiha and si Syaz...bagi direction macam ape ntah baik aku tanya nyonya jual durian tepi jalan)....We all (my family) duduk kat Hotel Mahkota which I will never recommend to anyone....phone rosak, aircon macam takde, air berwarna coklat (dodgy sungguh) tapi makan pagi bestla jugak.....Syaz and Apan stayed in Fenix Inn (tempat hooker2 melepak kot...dodgy sungguh bunyi tempat tu).....and Ema + family stayed in Equitorial Hotel....Can't tell how good these hotels are...boleh tanya ex-tenants nanti...
Anyway we ate at some place near our hotel for our lunch which was quite good and cheap compared to KL....I had Yee Mee Sizzling with Egg and Durian Cendol which cost me less than RM10...was quite delicious....Sri had something Sizzling as well and Honey Coconut Longan drink which wasn't that bad.....All in all a good meal....
We then went to Mahkota Parade to buy the wedding gift for Mas's brother and met Paan there. After that we went back to our respective hotel to rest....I watched the disastrous Man United vs Chelsea game which I regretted later on as it spoiled my mood for the whole night..like anyone in this blog cares....come to think about it I'm the only who watch football....lain semua kaki bangku!..
At around 9pm we went out to muara Sungai Duyung as Taty recommended a restaurant serving seafood situated there....Aku ingat macam maple2 kat KL ni baru setat nak hidup lepas Isyak and tutup busuk2 pon 2 pagi...sampai2 tempat penuh....but we managed to get a place for 11 ppl (including kids)...tapi bila order...order air dulu...'Sorryla air buah semuanya abih'...ade plak org tanya tu air oren ade tak? oren tu kan buah...so takdakla!....so anyway kitorang air non-buah.....pi order seafood....not badlah...sotong goreng, ikan jenahak bakar, pari bakar, kerang....makan ngan nasi lemak...ade lagi ikan ape ntah aku tak ingat nama....all in all okla...but if we come an hour earlier maybe we can have more options...bola punya pasal!...kalah plak tu...takpalah...at least kalau org tanya dah pernah makan kat Sungai Duyung bolehla aku cakap dah....
We came back around 10.30pm....Paan and Syaz went to Ema's place....pegi ke? Aku tak sure...anyway Ema did not join for the Sg Duyung meal pasal parents dia tak larat....
Following day....we took our time...had good breakfast...took the kids to the swimming pool...and the siap2 la utk pegi rumah Mas....excited la jugak...ye la kan Mas cerita2 walaupon dia tak pernah kata rumah dia besar tapi dari bunyinya agak besar...and mmg besarla!....
Paan, Syaz and Ema + parents pegi dulu...takde bebudak bolehla siap cepat....eheheh alasan...kitorang pegila lepas tu...arrived around 2 pm....Mas pakai baju melayu merah sepasang....semua famili2 dia pakai merah....busyla Mas kan....nak layan sangat pon tak buleh tapi to his credit he did come and spend quite a lot of time la with us...ade yg practise2 naik jinjang pelamin which was created by Mas's cousin....Pa'an dah book dah mamat tu utk kawin dia tapi bila la ntah...dah tua krepot nak MAMPUS kot....
Berkenal-kenalan la ngan parents Mas....his father was quite intimidating but very nice...nak la jugak jumpa kitorang ni...dahla tak kena mengena ngan pengantin pun datang jugak!...Raja Perlis was there and Ketua Menteri Melaka was there as well....so that said enough of Mas's family reputation in Melaka....jgn memain ngan Mas...dia hantar bodyguard2 Raja Perlis kalau kerek2 baru tau....tu Registrar2 Paki yg kerek2 tu Mas ko report je kat datuk sedara ko tu....
We didn't stay long pasal like I said it was Mas's bro wedding so seganla nak duduk lama2...dahla nak duduk kat dalam plak tu.....so we left around 4.30pm...
Paan plak tak sabar2 nak balik pasal nak tgk konsert Peter Pan..can u imagine nama group Peter Pan...takde idea dah ke? Org Indon punya group....Jakarta Boys ke...Indon Forever ke...Peter Pan??!?!Nasib baik lagu2nya ok...kata Paan la....and adik aku and Taty...so maybe boleh percayala...
Kitorang plak detour ke Nilai....ade macam factory outlet jual2 kain....so Kak Toh nak tgk2 sikit (and belila jugak)....and beli buah2 sikit and then balik....that was the whole weekend....seronok la jugak....
Kak Toh stayed until Tuesday and we brought her to KLCC as she never been to KLCC before pastu pegi Aquaria...was quite nice...Afiq agak seronok tgk ikan, shark, snakes and spiders....and also favourite dia iguana....Tuesday am pegi kedai kain mana ntah....(kain lagi) tak abih2 dengan kain org2 pompuan ni....katanya utk kawin sedara dia....tak kawin pon sedara aku rasa beli jugak kain....then we sent her Tuesday evening to Putra Bus Station........for part 2 now...

wah bestnyer korang2 berkumpul kat msia skarang ni!! i wish i was there!!
life is as usual here. pretty much the same everyday apart from the drastic developements in Kuba. Banyak cakap, bahasa dia la ntah apa aku pon tak paham. and he's already pulling up to his feet holding on to whatever he can, and not even 8 months yet!
i wont be working next 6 months again. staying at home with my little boy, don't feel like sending him to full-time creche b4 he's 1. we'll be in sligo for another year as honza is continuing here. i'm glad coz i dont want to leave our house just yet!
i will be going home for about a month in october, insyaAllah, so i hope i'll see u guys in malaysia!
btw, for the people in ireland, ie zarina, mas , agee, Ee and siti, aku nak buat bbq in june. korang kena bagitau weekend bila korang free and r able to come over to sligo and we'll do it then.
cheerios!

helloo.....

hello guys... sorry for not writing in this blog for quite some time. well, honestly, its been almost 2 year...well, i've been bz with the kids.since balik mesia, afiq, natrah n sofea asyik2 demam. still remember afiq wanted to go back to ireland because its so hot here.abe still not working, well as u know how these people take forever just to set up the interview then, they take another month just to prepare and post the offer letter and with the registration with MMC, god! so frustrating. so, still can't find a house. just in the case, if abe dpt kerja at the other side of thecity. with the toll (can u imagine from bandar seri putra to kajang exit , about 12 km, it costs about rm2.10 one way.just imagine how much we have to pay in a month!!!!) and the traffic jam ( so ridiculous).arghhh! i'm still not working, kena tunggu abe , until then, baru boleh apply kat KKM. basically, kitaorg penganggur terhormat.enough whining........
last week (at last), dpt jumpa syaz , paan n ema .we had so much fun....masa tu lah rindu kat ireland, teringat masa dulu2, every weekend ada jer activity nak buat, paling kurang pun syaz masak n yg lain mkn jer,, skarang, semua bz.mmmmmm.....
can't wait till this weekend.tak sabo nak gi umah mas n jumpa semua org.with kak toh dah balik , sure kecoh,
By the way, its not 26 april lah mas, its 27.
there is another announcement, on 11th may ,sesiapa yg ada kat mesia , semua dijemput to natrah's 2nd birthday, at my sister's house ( since kitaorg tak de umah lagi). time tak sure lagi. so yg bekerja tu free-free kan lah hari tu. c u guys there....

hello.....

walimaltulurus mas parwin munawir mahamooth dgn 'entah sape aku pun tak sure'

ok people,

aku balik 24th of april, abang aku kawen 26th april ( well nikah on the 25th april, family only occasion kot, lagipun friday night, so korang tak di jemputlah kot, mintakk maap bebyk,bukan aku yg kawen-sbb kalu aku yg kawen, SEMINGGU SEBELUM aku nikah pun krg dah DIJEMPUT), semua korang korang kene dtg on the 25th april.

DTGlah iyer, bawak family masing masing, kalau aku nak sebut name , tak sempatlah kan, tapi dtg tau, stakat nie aku tak sure whetther mak aku dah anto kad kat sume org or tidak, arituh mak aku kate nak anto kad pi umah abe, tapi aku tak sure sebab aku tak talipon umah dah lame. SO kalau tak sampai lagi kad, aku akan suruh mak aku re-SENT alll the kad jemputan to Emma's apartment.

To those working/studying , I FUCKING DONT CARE , and wont except any reason for you not being in MALACCA on the 25th of APRIL... ( cewah- stern giler- almaklumlah, dah deal dgn banyak puki puki nurse). well having said that, aku takder lah pakse, kalau boleh dtg, dtglah)

AKu balik dua minggu sampai 10th may, so hopefully sempatlah jumpe semua korang, this is not abt me meeting u people, sbb aku rase sri abe dah nak termuntah katak tgk muka aku, tapi more abt recreating the havoc times we had few years ago. Lagipun, nak tunggu aku kawen, lame lagilah kan.

sekian

One Litre of Tears...

Does my entry title sounds familiar to anybody? I bet it doesn't...well, it's the saddest Japanese series i watched recently.(bergenang lagi air mataku...)(I guessed i'm not as busy as the rest of you huh?). Anyhow, i'm not trying to convey anything here. It's just something to start my blog with.

Got a phone call from Sri yesterday! Boy, was I a happy man! Yeah...since it's been a while that i had any news from anybody...so sorry Paan, i kept guessing on my own whether ur either too busy or in trouble or something..i just kinda got used to receiving calls from you, kinda something to look forward to.Well, now I know. I bet Sri called you did't she?hehe...

Phuh!!!it's literally scorching hot here in Kelantan. Yesterday I was out riding my bicycle when Sri called. Since it's a precious one (the call), had to stop by the road side. There was no inhibition anymore guys! Panas pun panaslah! Later that nite, felt a little feverish...that's all. no biggies..

By the way, to Ema and Paan, i will be back this weekend (Sunday). Sri's making the arrangement for our little get together. I hope there won't be any problem this time. I will be home for a week (study week). Exam's coming soon (I hate USM!)

Can't wait to get back!!

hellop

hi ya people
how's it going? i don't remember when was the last time i went to check out this blog i can't seem to even remember when was the last time i jot down anything here, i guess that means it has been quite a while :-)
right now i'm waiting for a meeting with one of the surgical professors here in UiTM shah alam, not sure what this meeting is all about and honestly i don't really care. i'm sorry if i've been rather too quiet for the past year, like leia said yes life has finally caught up with us, it happened so fast though that i didn't have time to realize it until now, there are so many things to do, so many stuff to learn, so many problems that give u headache to solve, i guess i got distracted. life is so much different now than it was, as much as i hate that it wasn't as fun and almost "fairy-tale" happiness with lots of "kodak" moments like it was back then in Ireland, this is the real thing, gotta face the music and dance!
i rarely gotta hang out with the others who have came back, Ema is so studious these days that i need to make an appointment to see her a week in advance. don't blame her as her first year exam is just around the corner, i guess i would be like that too come this June when i'll be joining UM for my masters, not looking forward to it actually, i don't really know why? i don't even get to go home to see my family often either, i work 3 weekends in a row this month, before that when i was in Emergency Dept, i had only 3 saturdays or sundays off in 4 months! imagine that. work here sucks!! don't get me started on it i may never stop. well you guys who still out there, you better off just keep staying there, damn i'm hungry, haven't eaten anything since i got up actually, my appetite isn't as good ever since i recovered from a pretty bad pneumonia last 2 weeks, i guess i better get something to fill up my stomach before the meeting, ok people it's nice to hear from you guys again here in this blog, hope there'll be more, and syaz sorry you haven't heard from me for a while, will call you when i'm free. have a good day ahead guys, bye.

Bergenang air mataku...

GEMAS: Kedaifan hidup menyebabkan sepasang suami isteri menjadikan sebuah tandas lama yang hampir roboh di Stesen Kereta Api Gemas, di sini, sebagai tempat tinggal kerana tidak mampu menyewa rumah.

Ismail Mat, 70; dan isterinya, Rahimah Jolan, 68, mendiami tandas berkenaan sejak 27 Mac lalu selepas diberi peluang bekerja sebagai penjaga dan pencuci tandas baru yang bersebelahan ‘rumah’ mereka itu.

"Kami suami isteri hanya berpendapatan kira-kira RM10 sehari hasil kutipan bayaran masuk 20 sen daripada orang ramai yang menggunakan tandas serta hasil jualan tisu," katanya ketika ditemui selepas lawatan Pengerusi Jawatankuasa Pembangunan Wanita, Keluarga dan Kesejahteraan Masyarakat negeri, Zainab Nasir dan Pengarah Jabatan Kebajikan Masyarakat negeri, Mizan Maulud, semalam.

Ismail yang berasal Jelebu berkata, beliau mempunyai dua anak dan sebelas cucu hasil perkahwinan dengan isteri pertamanya, Habsah Isa tetapi mendakwa mereka tidak mempedulikannya.

"Sebelum bekerja di stesen ini, saya menjaga dan membersihkan tandas di Gerai Makan Majlis Daerah Tampin (MDT) dan tinggal di bawah tangga bangunan berkenaan lebih tiga tahun. Disebabkan tandas berkenaan rosak dan terpaksa ditutup, saya terpaksa diberhentikan.

“Namun, saya bersyukur kerana ada pegawai Keretapi Tanah Melayu Berhad (KTMB) yang menawarkan pekerjaan menjaga tandas di stesen ini, membenarkan saya tinggal di tandas lama yang hampir roboh," katanya.
Ismail berkata, beliau dan isteri terpaksa mencari papan untuk menutup lubang tandas serta plastik untuk dijadikan atap bagi berlindung daripada hujan dan panas.

"Disebabkan bilik tandas itu kecil berukuran 0.5 meter lebar dan dua meter panjang, saya dan isteri terpaksa tidur bergilir," katanya.

Sementara itu, Zainab yang menerima maklumat mengenai pasangan itu ketika majlis penyampaian bantuan kepada 38 mangsa banjir di Dewan Majlis Daerah Kecil Gemas bergegas ke lokasi berkenaan bagi meninjau pasangan suami isteri itu.

Beliau berjanji membantu mereka mendapatkan sebuah rumah Program Kesejahteraan Rakyat (PKR) atau Skim Bantuan Miskin Bandar bagi bantuan sara hidup.

"Saya berjaya memujuk mereka untuk ditempatkan sementara di Rumah Kebajikan di Seremban sehingga rumah berkenaan diperoleh. Saya berjanji kebajikan pasangan suami isteri ini dibela," kata Zainab.

Lupe..

Oh ye, korang bleh tambah gambar korang nak kat slideshow tuh. kalau nakle..hehe..click je kat add your pics tu..

Ishk..

Owh..aku nak letak lagu James Blunt kat slideshow tuh tapi dia pegi tindih atas gamba plak! otomatik je dia letak kat situ, takleh nak alih. biarjelah..tak larat dah..hihi..enjoy!!(oh ye, Syaz yg buat, tentulah byk gamba syaz kan?hehe:)

I MISS U ALL SOOO MUCH!!!

one of those days

aku secara rasminyer, membenci org org paki!! bukan saje benci biase biase jer, tapi benci yang ala ala membunuh like!

I hate them like!!!!, BEnci nyerlah aku!!! eeee benci tau!

on another note, abe aku tak sempat lg ke umah ko, last skali pegi minggu lepas, nanti aku pegi lagi, tapi entah bile sebab balik keje lambat ( paki punyer pasal)

hari itu shaz pergi umah ko, so rasenyer cam ader progress

on another note, shaz malaysia- dah settle dah, tunggu jer

on another note - hmmm, aku tak sure , cam nak baik malaysia, org lain kata suruh duduk keje kat sinie, but hmmm, takut duduk sinie tak kemane, dah satu interview yg aku saje tak pergi , so ader lagi 2 which i feel like giving a pass as well , siap kene marah dgn consultant lagi sbb tak pergi interview, to be honest dun really care.....

on another note- well, verdictnyer, aku rase time abe sri balik, hmm taklah sedih kot, wakakakakakaka ( matilah kene tembak dgn sri!!!) almaklumllah, aku skrang sorang jer yg tinggal kat cork, mungkin sbb banyak sgt orang dah balik, lagi pun arituh ko masuk depature hall cepat sangat lah sri, tak sempat lacrimal gland aku nak produce air mata, lainlah kak tohkan, bocor sentiase.

on another note- korang korang kat malaysia tuh mesti wonder aku buat ape pada hari hari minggu, welllll hmmmmmmm, hmmmmmmmmm, selain dari pergi dublin selalu gaklahkan, serta oncall , hmmm entahlah, borring jugaklahkan......

tak sabar nak balik mesia.........

sabar mas....esok birthday.......

a reason to block

salam,

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MARAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNYYYYYYYYYYYER aku!!!!

hari ini aku pergi kerja, tapi balik dgn penuh marahnyer skali!!!!

okay, hari ini kite orang post take, so like horror lahkan

lagi best , SHO aku cuti minggu nie

so aku dgn reg saje lah, inclding consultant.

nak bawak cerita, pagi nie reg taku text kata ader interview, so tinggallah aku saje, bleep dia tinggal dengan sorang lagi foreign reg ( reg aku nie foreign) , malas nak sebut dr mane.

hence, tinggal aku saje sorang, post take nak kena manage patient

hence pagi nie wardround sorang sorang, pepandailah aku buat plan aku sendiri, siap bincang dgn nurse and sho sho lain yang lalu lallang sidepan aku, aku call reg yang mengcover reg aku , dia kata buat jer ape yg aku rase betul, i was like , fine and i'll document on chart!

so aku orderlah mri brain 2 keping, ct abdo 2 ketul, ultrasound 3 ketul, consult sane consult sini

nie tak masuk lagi pts pts lain yang mcm2 nak kena buat

consultant pulak nak dry round jer on the fon, and nak tau pasal pts baru jer...tp tak mau dtg on the ward, bz katenyer mintak tlg reg yang mengcover kalau ader ape ape

sume dah buat , kupukl 3pm dtglah reg aku nie, dah abes interbiu, nak tau aper aku buat

aku ckplah aku dah order itu ini

dia benganng giler dgn aku sbb pasal satu pts:
aku order mri brain
29 year old loc for 2 days, sblm tuh dizziness, loc, loss of balance half month

dia bengang sbb aku tak suruh depa kat mri guna gadolinium??!!!!!

i was like ehhhhh! PUKIiiiiiiiiiii cam nerlah aku nak tau kene guna itu ini, dia dpt mri brain hari ini pon dah cukup bagus, aku dapat verbal report pon dah cukup bagus

marah mamat nie, dia ckp kenape tak bincang dgn reg yg cover dia, aku ckp aku tak der mase, and reg tuh ckp suruh ikut suka hati aku

bukan nyer dia nak be on my side, tapi siap cover lagi kawan dia tuh!!!!!!!!!

eeeeeeeeeee venci lah!

aderlah a few other unnessesary iXs yang dia nak aku book! tapi soooooo tak masuk akal!!!!!!!!!

malas aku nak cite , takder mood!

nak makan aku nyer mushrrom pie microwave lah skrang nie

nak tgk cerita eastenders jap lagi

rindu nyer lah aku kat mesia

venci venci venci

kuba...hahaha

honza!

how come nobody's been blogging??? well I have an excuse: busy with work and kid....wait a minute, that would be everybody's excuse wouldn't it-one or the other or both! hehe..it seems life has caught up with all of us....i miss the days where everyone's in one place, and one country! ema, paan, syaz n abesri dah kat msia...n the rest of us are thrown at every possible ends of this country..abis cemana? very rarely do we get to lepak reramai. i know i live too far away, but by all means sesapa rasa nak datang please do! n i knw besides the godforsaken distance, thr are oncalls to consider, its hard to have everybody free on the same weekend. tapi pleese...before i move away and agee pon dah lepas pantang, meh le ke sligo..i will try and accomodate everyone in my house...

medical oncall is soooooo menyampah! bz nak mampos kat ED, dah le kena jaga ward jugak cam intern. i am sooo over that chapter of my career-internship...tapi what can i do...oh yes, never work in sligo again, that's what.

my baby has finally started to sleep through the nite 10pm to 8-ish am..phew! tapi makin manja...bila time ptg aje, dia start dah nak attention, nak dukung aje...and for a five month old, he can surely throw a major tantrum, fists and feet banging on the floor, screaming at the top of his lungs as he lies there, and he'll keep at it untill somebody picks him up!

oklah...kena buat keje...sambung lagi nanti....