when i think it's all over.....

now, i know you guys couldn't stand at reading on one more entry from me in this blog ( as if i care ) i just couldn't help it. it was really bad to an extent i was thinking what i was going to write about in the blog today while walking down the stairs in this place. surely i'm officially blog-infected at this stage.

after been awake for the whole night last night, well actually not the whole night i managed to get an hour sleep give or take and interrupted in between, this morning i became really manic. was really excited that i finally done with the call and the thought of going home later just made me elated, truly hyper like a surge of energy blasted through me from out of no where. so the round was pretty hectic and quick, rushing from one bed to another. i really don't like that coz it made me all confused and got all the patient mixed up. i almost told my boss a 21 year old girl who actually suspected appendicitis, came in with possible diverticular abscess instead, which is true for another patient whose age was 83. damn it made me looks incompentent!!!! well i noticed it rather early and nobody actually paid any attention since i had pressure of speech this morning, holy crap i never know i can speak that fast. don't ask me what was the speed put it this way, it really sound like i was talking with my mouth full like abe always teased me with. in another word i was just mumbling, what the hell was wrong with me?!!

soon after we finished the round my intern for some reasons being really kind , anothe peculiar thing that happened today, wanted to hold my bleep so i can get some sleep for a few hours, i did jump into the opportunity and managed to only an hour coz i was so anxious that maybe people were looking for me etc. the usual stuff. got up and went to do some chart digging for the audit, me! me!? a locum, lending my hands for good cause, my ass the truth is honestly i have the inability to say NO, hence there i was in medical records going through some charts that took me 20 minutes to finish 3 pages. well doctors' handwriting are actually encrypted and not all people could decode those writings, what perceived as illegible in fact a code that only other doctors could understand ( yeah right! pride o pride) . anyway i was on my way to radiology department after that thinking i might get some verbal reports on some of my new admissions last night only to run into my boss, shit!!! trauma case!!! guess what we had to go to theatre urgently. WHAT!!!!! i can't believe this i thought everything's gonna chill down a bit this morning but it was the opposite. we scrubbed in at 1400 hrs and finished at 1730 hrs. all the manic and elation were gone insted fatigue and irritable took place. on top of that before theatre started, i went to crossmatch 6 units of bloods and everyone was rushing in total drama and chaos!!! like a scene in ER, i swear to god it was like in ER. we were rushing to theatre, me and my team but i had to send the request form for the blood first. there i was heading to the chute to send it but a place where it usually fills with canisters, and if there were only few canisters in the world THAT would the first and only place they would keep them, were empty, nadah. what in the world?! then i was practically begging the labs to send just one to me but they either up to their eyeballs busy or simply no answer, i tried the wards instead the same happened. i had no other choice but to run across the building to tha lab delivered it myself. i ran back up to the theatre to find that the patient hadn't arrive at OT and met my reg who believed that i was the one who was going to accompany the patient on transit, SHIT!! then i ran down to x-ray mind you theatre is at the 8th floor and x-ray is at 3rd. hungry, thirsty, tired, sleepy and annoyed all in one made me cursing away on every single steps i set my foot on. once there, the nurse told me that the patient just after arriving in theatre. ok now i'm officially pissed i had to go up again and fast. finally i reached theatre but i can't do anything but to make sure i could breath on my own. thought i was really fit!!! hate this self-discovery!! turns out that there were no major trauma before in past few months but 2 cases in which i was there working when it happened and i scrubbed for it. what are the odds?! at least i had enough exercise that could last me a month. now i'm heading home, at last! get something to eat and shower and sleep!!! can't wait for tomorrow, yaiy!!!

The wind that shakes The barley

AWAS

TO CONTINUE ON READING , ENSURE AT LEAST 5 MAN SIZE-TISSUE BOXES ARE NEXT TO YOU

well things has definately been slow these few weeks, i must admit walaupun aku dah lama gaklah abes exam , i just wasn't i a mood for blogging, dah banyak kali aku ker UCC nie untuk blog , but ended up doing nothing , sebab just as i said, plain tak der mood. For me kalau nak tulis blog nie, kena ader mood, barulah buleh turlis, so thats why may be i've never had my own blog ( contrary to popular believes -lah kan).

I was never one of those diary-kinda people. I could still remember once in sekolah rendah , we were introduced to the concept of writing a diary by one cikgu Mazidah ( my english teacher- cubby cubby, baik giler) for our english, kecoh satu darjah ( like standard 5 i think) nak beli diary ( bare in mind- all boys skool), everyone was suddenly into it. Kedai buku kat sekolah aku sebuklah nak stock up dengan diary, siap naik harga lagi as i can remember. On top of that since the english teachers decided that the person with the most up to date,paling LAWA, and paling canggih punyer diary would win a prize at the end of the year, LAGIlah budak budak nie naik angin/lemak. I still remember That particular period/season when DIARIES were so IN. Everyone would come to class the next day boasting on how lawa and canggih their diary was.......macam-macam gaya ada, ada yang muka surat berlipat-lipatlah, ada yang ader lagulah bila bukak , ada yang ader ader glitter, ada yang ada gambar Nash-lah ( malay singer) and ada yang ada gambar Wann ( pre-90's dangdut singer...yang dah entah kemana-tah)..........Me obviously being the unartistic grp, obviously couldn't be bothered-lah kan, hmmmm, but i must admit, at first i was into it as well, but may be for about a week max, pastuh entah kemane tah diary aku tuh. Well anyway, i surpose bagus jugak tulis diary nie, goz it sorts of gives you an outlet to express yourselves, macam tulis blog nie lah, but to me , hmmmmm may be aku nie just can't be bothered kot about things around me time tu.......hmm entah-lah......

Back to reality, these few months have obviously been a trying time for almost everyone, the lost of one person definately did change the dynamics of everyones life including me. From my point of view , i must say , that shaz was a significant part of my life. Daripada aku datang lagilah, shaz was there, so basically these 4 years, my ups my downs , sume shaz ada. Pendek kata , shaz balik macam aku nie hilang something that was apart of me. Its sort of that when that person is there , you don't kindof dun realise it. Tapi bile orang tuh dah tak-da, barulah nak rasa. I've definately learnt a lot from shaz, put aside the cooking skills, in terms of relationships with your friends and the people around you. Before, i've always considered myself to have a good relationship with the people around me , until one day shaz pointed out that i was tooo private, and i never give out ( sort of having a Big Big wall around me), even to him, and sampai skrang after 4 years of being close friends, he still tak boleh read me........ that i must say was the turning point, when i started thinking, hmmmmmmmm, betullah jugaklah jugakkan. ......may be i should give out more, now slowly-lah i'm trying my best.......wekekekekeekeke.....like now....

Shaz balik, aku rase sunyi sikitlah-kan. Shaz balik, aku tak tahu nak cakap macam mana. It struck me most time aku exam arituh, coz the years before, my room definately would be THE PORT. It felt quite funny especially the time when i was walking to the exam halls, kalau dulu dulu mesti jalan dengan shaz, now jalan sorang-sorang. ....( tissue alert), lagi lagi kalau orang -orang tertentu keluar dengan statement, 'Ehh, kingkong , ko jalan sorang ? Mane shaz?' nasib baik lah tahap sabar aku masih tinggi, nak jer aku bagi flying kick kat minah tuh.

well anyway, as i've always said to myself ,shit happens, pick it up and move on........

I guess i was pretty lucky that in part , i was quite busy dengan exams. It felt like soooooo long , tak abes abes lagi exam aku, korang sume tau lah ....adalah dalam 3 bulan lebih aku rase aku exam, give or take. Penat, sangat penat , sampai nak suka ria pon rasa tak best, walaupun sempat lagi nak bersuka ria. Still remember those times in which pergi ke rumah siti and sri semata-mata sebab nak makan, wakakakakakaka,and also those times when shaz would creep out of the house senyap-senyap semata-mata sebab tak mau aku tau korang ada aktiviti, wkekekekeke.

However , dalam banyak banyak aktiviti, the one i regret most not going was to the mr. and mrs. franta/frantova's wedding. I must admit , that day , walaupun aku ckp aku nak stadi, tapi aku tak da lah stadi sangat pon , just had no mood, wekekekekekeke. WELL anyway, insyallah, i try to make it to penang! DGN SHAZ!!!!. Satu lagi is that,sebab exam tak sempat aku nak ke erinville jumper sri beranak. SO maksudnya tak sempat lah aku menatap wajah sri one day post beranak. Serious sri , aku rase lama sangat ko mngandung, sampai aku tak ingat camna ko kalau tak mengandung. Dalam 9 bulan sri pregnant, banyak giler kita beraktiviti (masak2,makan2,minum2, lompat2). Insyallah , Allyna nanti pon mesti suka beraktiviti, wakakakakakaka. And aku raselah-kan, dalam 9 bulan ko pregant, kiteorg sekeliling ko pon macam(ala-ala) ikut mengandung skali......skarang aku looking foward nak lunch dgn ko kat CUH, at least ada teman.

On top of that, i must give credit to Paan and emma for also being there at that time. I must say without you guys, may be-lah aku akan depress. Yours trully has definately felt at home in paan's car, siap ada seperation anxiety lagi. And i must admit that as i told you paan , bau kereta kau masih still stick in my mind ( how doggy it that) . It was good for everyone i guess, that a week pre- and post- shaz balik , paan ada. ( Paan= aktiviti ( read lollerblade, bagai)) .....definately kept us occupied and filled the void left by shaz ( awwwww, tissue alert). Bagus jugaklah ko dpt keje kat CUH arituh, at least aku tak -lah ckp dgn dinding sowang2. Credit pon to mosh,and siti sebab siap call aku nak main lollerblade. Tekejut aku , dpt fon call dari mosh, ingatkan pegawai JPAlah nak keep track on me....suara ko soo-lah suara pegawai2 gitu.

I must say that , never have i had friends that are so fun to be with , that i'm definatelty gonna miss you guys bile korang sume balik/pindah. Emma's probably gonna be the first to leave us, followed by Paan somewhere in end of the year. With honza gone, Leia's gonna move to dublin early next year. I gather, lepas nie tak adalah those famous "lompat-lompat terkinja-kinja macam orang gile" nak amik gambar sessions-kan. Tak per Sri, nanti bile ko dah boleh lompat nanti,and bile budak2 nie dah balik sume, kite lompat and amik gambar, pastu tunjuk depa , bagi depa jeles.

When i think of it, all of the things thats happening is such a story, thats its in sync with the blogs name - Ceritakita! Memanglah sebuah cerita tahun nie.......

wif leia kawen,shaz emma and paan gone, sri dapat anak and keje, and me masuk final med and hopelfully grad (insyallah)..........its soooo could be a nice ending ( aka 'at last they live happily ever after kindof thing.....) to the whole story......betul tak?

May be the "at last they live happily ever after...." statement tuh unreal sket, tapi hope fully it will end like that someway or another........ ( awwww, tisu-tisu).

On the bright sight, at least yang bakal balik tuh boleh berkhidmat untuk kerajaan ( wakakakkaka-ketawa evil)....but i guess on a much more brighter note, you guys get to be with ur own families ! Catch-up those years that you guys have lost. Pendek kata , its like one malay peribahasa " hujan emas dinegeri orang bla bla......." (awwww, tisu-tisu)..... Apa-apa pon bile balik mesia boleh jumpe semula, bukannyer tak jumpe langsungkan, lagi pon kite sumekan nak beli tanah sekeliling tanah sri abe kat mesia tuhkan, so bolehlah jumpa tiap-taip ari...hahahahahaa

well, i guess i've said everything i wanna say. Skrang nie aku nak pergi ke bandar, nak cari ape-apa yang aku buleh cari. May be if i have anything to say , i'll write it down soon, skrang nie dah abes idea nak tulis. Lapar lah pulak kan.....

cau!

i must've been hitler in my past life!!!!!!!

arghhhhh!!!!! it's 0515 hrs on thursday morning and i haven't gone to bed yet. damn for some unknown reasons most people who got sick tonight managed to find their ways to go under surgical team. while i was busting my ass running around like a headless chicken between casualty and the ward, none of the medical team was around. apparently the score for admission was 7 to 1 in my favor and this was at 2200 hrs. then again these people are genuinely sick with surgical problems so i can't give out all i want the fact is they need my care, not just from me but from the service. i swore so much god knows it started to sound like a song that stuck in my head, pretty good really maybe i can release it as a single someday.

now as i'm waiting for the x-ray of a patient who is unwell and god knows when would that be done ( mind you that's urgent x-ray!), i stow away in this tiny little room to give out yet again about my unfortunate life. eh! i don't care if other people say their life worse than mine but the way it looks like right now nothing can't top mine, argh! nothing i tell you!!!! ( dramatic nyer ) i want my mommy!!! i left my phone at home along with my scrubs so now, i stink, the clothes stink and gotta wear this again for the whole day till 5, huh good luck people around me. i can live with that since some people here shower once a month but life without my phone?!!!!!! might as well i jump out the window next to me right now, it's 6th floor and would make quite an impression once i reach the bottom. shite!!! i can't figure out why this is happening to me i must've been some really bad ass guy in my previous life to deserve this bad karma (this statement is not necessarily mirror my belief) for what it's worth i have only 2 more days left, finally the end is coming and as i told my fellow medical student here, come 5 o'clock friday evening this hospital will see some crazy brown guy

running naked in the parking lot !!!!

nasib si tabib jalanan

it seems that i whine too much. well i'm not going to apologize about it since that what humans do. whining and complaining in fact are the very things that make us humans, among lots of other things. everyone does it and the only difference between one person to another is wheather he verbalize it or keep it to himself. well it can constructive sometimes i mean i f you don't like about a system you complain about it and address it as a problem then you can take action to change it. at personal level on the other hand, this would let you recognize that there is a problem within yourself that may need help.

why did i bring this up, well recently it just occurred to me that i whine too much pretty much about everything, nothing around me that makes me happy. why is that? i tried to be positive, find something that would occupy me hoping i would be distracted from this negative attitude. the vicious cycle seems so solid and breaking it like trying to nail a concrete wall, no matter how much you hammered down the nail, you either break or bend it or you might hit your own hand in the process but the wall left with a little crack hardly noticed by anyone. the cycle i meant is the whining about your life followed by the feeling of worthlessness and hopelessness than you take the whole day to motivate yourself just to face the very same thing that make you whine in the first place on the next day, so the cycle go on and on. as a result all the energy that you could've used for a productive and fruitful day just gone in vain.

now that i realize this, i should've known that my life desperately in need of a makeover or also known by "hijrah". goodness, prophet muhammad s.a.w was the pioneer of this makeover concept, in a way. i mean in a situation that no improvement obtained at strong efforts and determination from your part to counter your own problem, it's time to evaluate your options. maybe it's time to make a compromise, people make sacrifices all the time in order to accomodate their own tailored lives along the way to reach their targeted destination. that doesn't make them losers but wisers. everyone has different sets of paths in life, as much as we want them to be as straightforward and simple as we could, unfortunately there is a greater power in play which we have no power over it. circumstances, fate, everything is predetermined. some might change our priorites and ambitions in our lives.

this locum thing is great, flexible hours and the chance to see the world, yeah right, just the rest of the country and they all look the same anyway. but on the downside, it's not recognized for training, well not that it would be different anyway if i have a full time job i mean the skills you would learn but more importantly to me i guess is how it would undermine your psyche. people look down on you, maybe the fact that someone's locuming in the past, people took their responsibles a bit lightly hence no respect for this kind, quite a common understanding generally. it's really a struggle and the fact that people second guess you all the time, questioning your decision, gosh it's really depressing. i can't help it but realistically yes they don't know you and your reputation hence it's natural for them to feel that way, for some reasons it bothers me too much. bottom line is locum is good as kicap manis on the side of main dish but on its own it can disastrous. i guess i better get my ass off this chair and study as hard as i could to pass my part 3 so i can "hijrah" back home, the sooner the better but damn the nearest scheduled exam is in october. i probably just have to put up with it for the time being. sure i can do this. yes i can, yes i can, yes i can......... phew glad got this out of my chest. 1 down 4 days more to go. what a long week.

another week has gone by, here comes friday yet i won't be cheering up like others would do once the clock ticking at 4 pm. i wish i could but i have to come back to work again tomorrow. gosh i don't like on-call during the week and certainly dislike it even more in the weekend, it's weekend!!! ok basically i just don't like on-call period. god bless those people who do enjoy calls. wish i was once of them. so naturally at the moment i'm dreading at the prospect of coming to work tomorrow and the thought that i have to deal with all the ward jobs. i just don't like it, and i don't know why, i'd do the same things in casualty and i'm okay with it but the fact that it has something to do with the ward just put me off. stupid intern works and i guess there is another big factor for my not yet reaching "hatred" level of this stuff but i'm not gonna say it here at least not yet, who knows maybe after tomorrow i might, my friends probably know what i'm talking about. please god please let it flies swiftly and painless as possible, amen.

the weather here up in the northwest of the country pretty much like the rest of the country, gloomy and dull perhaps with a little drizzles all day long if you lucky and if you really really lucky there be stormy wind that strong enough to fly away an old lady who was walking down the streets, there you go old granny fly around in the sky like mary poppin. how depressing. yes it is depressing and i miss my own bed, my couch and my apartment. as if things couldn't any worse, digiweb rang me the other day telling me that my apartment couldn't possibly have wireless internet installed. not because it's on the ground floor but the fact that my apartment faces the opposite direction of the satellite locust or anything like that. there goes my broadband dream........screw it. i don't want broadband internet that much anyway............ok maybe not too much but i kinda need it. whatever.

damn, i'm so sleepy feel like i can fall off of this chair and lay down on this library floor, i swear sometimes i feel my like eyes have minds of their own. if it said sleep i don't have a choice in that matter and sleeping i go. like now for example hence i need to stop and crawl in to a room somewhere and sleep like a baby

hi guys....

sorryle lama tak tulih dlm blog ni....biasalah bz. well , today dah ari yg ke 20 umur natrah.so i have another 24 days nak berpantang2 ni.(mcm le selama ni aku berpantang sgt) hehhehe. aku pun dah start kuar umah.so lepas ni sape yg nak msk tu boleh le jemput aku skali(esp ema n mas).oleh kerana paan bising takde org nak tulis ,meh le aku cite psl kebzan aku yg dah ada dua org anak ni.tension giler....bukanle nak merungut tp agak penat jugak le. i cannot imagine camne org dulu2 ada sampai 7-8 org anak kecik2.yg 2 ni pun susah nak jaga.lepas sorang sorang aku kena attend.lepas sorang nangis, yg sorang lagi pulak nangis.bila sorang nak tido yg sorang lagi pulak bangun, nasib baik bila abe balik dia tolong jaga anak.tak sabo rasanye nak tunggu abe cuti.nasib baik jugakle mak aku ada.at least ada org nak msk.kan best kalau syaz ada boleh aku minta tolong masak.thats it lepas ni cukup.aku dah tak larat dah.kalau nak pun tunggu lama skit sampai si natrah tu dah besar.so aku nasihatkan org2 yg takde anak lagi tu berseronokle dulu.hehhehhe...bila dah puas berseronok barule nak beranak.
aku pun nak meluahkan betapa tensionnye diri ini sbb tak dpt jugak keja intern.bangang punye UCC.bolehle aku dlm waiting list lagi.ada PR pun tak guna gak.apalah nasib badan...penat jer aku turun naik UCC.kalau aku tak dpt keja jugak julai ni lagi le depress aku.pastu terpaksa le aku tunggu next jan.dah le syaz takde ,bosannye idup aku.mas nak balik summer, org lain keja.agee nak pindah limerick.iskhiskh.sedih syaz balik tak abih lagi .anyway,aku tak call lagi syaz since dia balik ari tu bukan apa aku takut nanti aku nangis lagi . abih tisu sekotak pulak.kalau abe call sure dia lagi sedih hehehh. tambah pulak tak lama lagi ema nak balik, paan balik.macam mummy kata sunyile kita bila 2 mulut murai ni takde...bosannye...nasib baik mak aku ada hehehe.... at least takle boring tu pun sampai bulan lapan je.mula le aku nak sedih bila memikirkan masa hadapan. aku rasa nak banyak aku tulih rupa2nye skit je.macam mana le paan boleh tulih berjela2.lain kali le aku tulih bila aku tak bz ye kawan2. aku nak letak gambar natrah aku tak reti lagipun korang smua dah tengok dia.tunggu le bila dia besar skit.bila muka dia berubah skit.aku paksa abe tolong letak utk aku.
chowsssss

p/s: syaz rumput aku dah panjang mcm utan kat belakang ngan kat depan.penat aku pikir nak minta tlg sape potong.lagipun aku nampak tikus dr umah sebelah berlari2an kat belakang tu. takut aku nak kuar.

we will miss you........

It has been quite a while since I wrote anything here, quite eventful weeks indeed I must say these past couple of weeks. Wonderful and happy moments that made us smiling all day and instilled cheerful feelings each time they come across our minds nonetheless a tear jerking moment as we loss one of our dear long time friend or should I say a member of our little family here.

I made myself available in the weekend of May 13th on which day the blood shed tragedy occurred back home in 1969, people remember this day as a black spot in the history of our country. To me not anymore, as I remember it as a very memorable day of the joining of my dearest friends in matrimony, Anelia and Honza Franta. The wedding was in Clonskeagh Mosque in Dublin (I may have spelled the name of the mosque incorrectly) on Saturday, 13th of May 2006 at 2 pm. It was such a wonderful wedding as it was indeed very private, personal yet simple and we were all there even Afiq! in celebration of the union of these 2 lovebirds. However there were a couple of our good friends couldn’t make it to the wedding and they all had a valid excuse not to come, nah if only they could come they would be the first to be there and the wedding would have been merrier by their presence. Everything went well, I enjoyed every second of it and I gotta be one of the witnesses, not intentional but since I had my passport with me and the others had not I won the hot seat. Actually it was an honour to be part of their wedding, thanks guys for letting me be ( as if u guys had a choice hahaha) even though I was probably the last person you would ask for, okay again I was just messing. Again thank you to both of you. The day got even better weather wise, it set everyone’s in a good and festive kinda mood and the little “reception” we had down at the mosque’s restaurant was indeed a happening one. Oh here comes the best part, the wedding cake!!! Oh my god, I wouldn’t believe my eyes when I saw it, it looked really beautiful and very professionally made, well done to the chefs, Syaz and Zariena!! I know you guys went through hell to make it and they were all worth it, the cake was indeed a success. Tasted delicious and juicy actually, this comes from me who isn’t really a fan of cinnamon and fruity type of cake, so it was great.

The photography session outside the mosque was fun, there were pouting pose, jumping and all these weird poses you can imagine. The pictures came out okay though. Later that night we went to a Japanese restaurant in Dublin city for dinner, there were 12 of us left including the bride and groom, the rest had gone back to Cork. The food sucked but the company were brilliant. Syaz, Syed and I got there a bit late as were got lost on the way to the restaurant, funny thing was Syed drove us there and he practically a Dublin native since he lives there for the past 9 years ironically still managed to get lost. I know I’m gonna be harmed for this statement, sorry Syed as a consolation you have such an awesome apartment the best yet I’ve known among Malaysian and great hospitality. There I paid my due. It was a good night and the newlyweds were blushing when we left the restaurant as we all made fun of them, we made quite a scene really hahahahaha. Here I would like to wish to both of you Lia and Honza all the best and all the everlasting happiness and joy both of you are going to embark together as well as success in life and careers. Also wish you beautiful, smart and afiq-like friendly kids to you guys too. Well sure you know this, you guys actually perfect for each other, kinda freaked me a bit when I found out how you guys have so much in common and you Honza has such great patience! hahahahahaha. I am truly happy for you guys, to the bride and the groom, Anelia and Honza!!!!! Cheers (tisu, tisu……. mana tisu)

Damn I thought I wanna do this in chronological order as it happened, I just skipped the birth of Alynna Natrah Faisal. Maybe Ema’s curse on me starting to take its effect for making fun of her too much. Afiq’s little sister was born on May the 11th at 10:30 am in Erinville Hospital. She is just the sweetest and cutest little baby, this time Sri’s winning, I think she looks more like her mommy than her daddy especially her nose. Regardless she is one beautiful and good baby doesn’t cry much maybe not to her parents though, she’s gonna be as good as her brother I bet. Congratulations once again to you Abe, Sri and Afiq!!!!

With all these good things that been happening, i was so grateful to god for the blessings however life can be so cruel at times. As we were celebrating the wedding and the arrival of our new additional member we were the saddened by Syaz’s return to Malaysia for good. Circumstances can be a bitch most of the times, for some reasons he has to come back for his own good future. Honestly of all people I admit I probably will miss him and feel his lost the most as I had been quite dependant to him as my confidant, my cook and source of laughter, he is quite a comedian I must say. My housemate for 6 years and close friend for all of this time I’ll be lying if I don’t feel anything with his departure. He is such a good friend, very obliging, kind-hearted, fun, lively, talented, smart, self-sufficient (he likes to take this quality for granted though) and everyone easily get close to him even in such a short period as he is the most accommodative person you would ever met. Everyone here loves him and misses him. As much as we would love him to stick around his future is waiting back home, knowing him he could survive any obstacles in his path, knowing him he would have many success to come and knowing him he will discover later that going home is the best decision he ever made so far. He has our blessings for leaving us and Syaz, we all here for you if you need anything and though you far away you are very close to our hearts. We wish you all the best with your fresh start and sure we will meet you again, and you know what we’re looking forward to it already. (tisu, tisu ……mana tisu!!!!)

Honza And Anelia

tak tau tajuk ape lah

As it has been pointed out by the writer 2 stories down , blog nie sememangnyerlah lame tidak diupdatekan. Well yours truly sibuk mengadap buku atas meja, manekala yang lain-lain sibuk beranak serta kawen. For once terseksa gaklah batin ini duduk atas meja tuh mengenangkan yang lain lain sedang sibuk enjoy kawen kawen serta bersuka-ria , and for the moment my room looks really like a dump. Actually I just finised my exams today, mula mula ingat nak pergi Bandar, but decided against it coz tadak duit and lagi pun dah muak aku tengok bandar, so I made my way to the only place I know better – (TESCO) , well alkisahnyerlah sebelum sampai wilton roundabout , I made the decision to go to CUH instead, sebab lapar giler ( kepada yang sedia jeles , yesterday , which was Sunday , I just ate oranges ( five I think ) and ( two pisangs) and roti 2 keping, and well as accompanied by the cawan demi cawan of coffee ( so some reason aku bubuh banyak giler gula ) and sebab tuh pagi nie berak aku busuk giler.

Well as usual , at CUH aku melantaklah sampai tak ingat dunia , it was probably the most I’ve ever eaten in one go , banyak giler !!!!!

( Shaz you would feel so proud of me!-AND THIS TIME ,HONEST!)

siap bayar lebih lagi then the normal $4.30! si minah Filipino tuh siap warning lagi aku yang its not $4.30

(dalam hati-I was like hello!! Aku yang nak makan ker kau yang nak makan !!
You know when your faced with situations like this, you just wanna hampuk kepala minah tuh dengan tray yang ader kat tangan ko or simbah dengan air panas, nasib baik aku maintain…..

Sebab aku makan banyak sangat arini, on the way home aku sakit kepala yang amat sangat ( post-prandial migraine) , abeh sampai tak buleh bukak mate sume ( warrrrrr, dramaticlah pulakkan ) …….so balik umah aku tidur, and tengok ricky lake then oprah ( Ya Allah , mak-maklah sangatkan). Then aku bangun , and dah okay , and noticing that my headache has gone the sun was shinning brightly , i did the second thing I know most, pergi ke UCC nie-lah, so skrang aku kat UCC tengah memblogkan diri. I gather korang sume still mesti tak balik lagikan ke cork ni.

Hmm yours truly hasn’t been doing much these few months, except bukak buku, and kalau tak bukak buku, berangan sorang-sorang kat dalam bilik , cakap/menyanyi sorang sorang, berangan jadi superstar , or some some drop dead gorgeous model .
I reckon kalau aku duduk lame sket dalam bilik aku tuh , buleh kene makan dengan bilik nanti. Well aniways, my room is totally-really-really in a mess now, tak tau nak start kat mane. Kain baju aku pon banyak yang tak basuh, termasuklah bekalan suar dalam aku yang tersangatlah berharga yang hampir depleted, serta ader tergantung kat mane-mane, a few days ago I found a suar dalam inside my karung bantal!! Nasib baiklah AKU yang punyer-kan!!! Well aniways I guess that’s all, will be adding stuff in soon, so stay tunelah-kan.

Dinner at C. Paradiso

Hello hello hello! Since our bro-that- self-confessed-of-a-morbid-ramblings (soo true though) dah meradaNG due to lack of enthusiast/contributors, yours truly felt quite guilty of the charge. So Paan, berhasil jugaklah taktik taktik kau nih. I want to immortalised our "Cafe P Day" last weekend in our Blog, so when some of us begin our seperate ways in seperate continents we can always recap these tsk tsk tsk moments tsk tsk tsk together...

Consistent with general opinion that Shaz should be a proffesional Chef... "Chef Shaz" cool! I really would like to congratulate Shaz and all his apperentice (yours truly lah), Entree Chef Emma Walsh and Dessert/Pastry Chef Lia for what can only be described as sublime, purrre indulgence cuisine.

Shaz, kau kena ingat sampai bila2 the joy of shopping in the Cork Food Emporium ( English Market ler) with Emma (masa aku oncall tak aci!. Aku tau kau excited sangat beli those rarified organic ingredients sampai "bertakbir" tgh2 malam hahahahah. I wish I can look at Abe's face at that time......hahahahah!!!!!!!!! My god looking at all the orgaanic ingredients........ just fantastic. (Ok you guys can certify me as a Food Freak now).

The fabulous entree by Emma

Baked portobello mushroom with Cashel blue cheese, pecan crumbs and sage, and smoked paprika aioli (aha...aha...)



The Chef's main course

Goats Cheese crottin and caramalised red onion in hazelnut tartlet with watercress pesto


Walaupun ada juga perut yang nak nasi ayam lepas tuuu (heheheh tak per tak per). Little Aqeelah really likes asparagus! So cute watching her go through them! Aji and uncle... jgn salahkan aku ya....

It ended with Swiss Almond (or something) coffee, but not before the dessert of Vanilla, ricotta and white chocholate pudding with blueberry compote (alamak Lia sorry tak da gambar aku terlupa lak smalam). But oit was guuuuddd

Tapi the night has a big but..... I really wish Mas and Honza were there, I m sure you will enjoy it. No matter Mas...Insyallah we will do it again after Lia's Wedding. So Paan (even though I will sooo have to buat nasi goreng belacan for you ), make sure u r in Cork the weekend after Lia's wedding ok.

Small note...... Little Afiq, get well soon chayang! And Sri, Im on call Wed and Friday if you decide to have your baby ok will be looking forward to see ur new edition!

aah ek keciknyer dunia nih!!!!

weh mas mana datang entry ko ni? tadi takde tup tap before aku nyer lak tuh!!! by the way you are the only one who can pull this kinda "amazing" discovery hahahaa, some talent........i mean it!!

the comeback

it annoys me that everytime i went to this site, i see "kelakar bangat" on the title. what happen to the contributor people of this blog? rather watching this site slowly dying right before my eyes i better take the initiative to jumpstart this god forsaken site.
i haven't been working for quite a while that means i had all the time in my hands to be somewhere around people who gratefully never tired of listening my insanely morbid talent to talk rubbish so i guess there was really no point of me to blog. on the hand now that i'm stuck in Sligo General Hosp, i'm sorry to announce my comeback into this blogging arena one more time for you guys to endure hahahaha, the healthy outlet for me and for you people :-). by the way this hospital library or so called "research and education centre" kick ass!!! i never got the chance to wander around the place yet as i drove to sligo from limerick at 0300 hrs, that 3 am in the morning Syaz (hahahahah) and arrived at 7 am just to find that i was on-call that very day. what have done to deserve this!!!!!!! (dramatic le konon-kononnyer) well i just had to suck it in and let the day went by with no expectation whatsoever, that helped actually. i just took it one thing at a time and so far so good :-) ( talk about self-help). nothing exciting happened anyway i guess the most excited part would be meeting Ike, i was asking myself the other day who would be working here that i probably know somehow his name didn't cross my mind but now he's my best friend!!!!!! he always is but now even better than ever hahahahahaha, just messing. thank god i'm only gonna be here for another 3 days........3 long days........3 long long days. that's fine by tomorrow, 1 down 2 more to go!!!! whatever.
last weekend as usual being as joyful and hedonistic as ever we all went to the beach. it was indeed a really good trip, i like the "journey" part thanks to you Abe i never felt that happy seeing you screwed up the picnic plan really enjoyed the guilty look on your face hahahahah(explosive and evil laugh), just messing. well in fairness at the end we found an exquisite (at least at the time given the options) place pretty much exclusive to us. i could see the excitement in everyone's eyes and we had this "pantai ini kami yang punya!!!!" vibe going on especially Abe, admit it dude!!!!
hahahahaha. great day...and it wasn't until 2 days later it dawned on me that days like that won't be like that anymore as pointed out by Sri and emotional Abe. last weekend was the last one we could all be together like that minus few who were oncall (your absence were felt guys, truly). soon Sri would be you know, decompressed :+> and our weekend port won't be available like before, Syaz will be leaving so will Mas, then Ema :-(((( tisu, tisu.....mana tisu?
i guess it's time for me to grow up now, take life seriously especially my career, guess i had too much fun, not that it was bad but it might cause my priority went a bit astray, no wonder i'm still here hahahahaha (again explosive laugh) but for the moment i want to make the most of it and enjoy whatever time we have left forever, we're gonna party like we never did before yeah!!!!! party=drinking coffee in costa/feast of delicious malay cookings(esp Syaz's)/ eat and eat and eat a couple more time over. damn my reg just turn up, literally out of nowhere,how did he do that?! (perplex in wonder) gotta go

dunia ini kecik

ARRRRRRRRRGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
EXAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TAK SUKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well aku dok surf net, malas nak bajo, jumpelah satu blog nie pasal seorang mat sallleh kawen melayu....dok tgk tgk jumpelak org yang aku kenal dalam bol mamat nie

link:

http://macvaysia.blogspot.com/2004_08_01_macvaysia_archive.html

Kelakar Bangat!!!

Mas...Mas...jumpa aje kau bende2 merepek nie yek?!Syaz pun malas nak lama2 kat sini. Babai!

something really really funny!

No time nak buat post panjang panjang , in between neonatal rounds ( abe, aku kat erinville arini..hahaha) , well was going tru the list of hospitals in malaysia online, i want u guys to go to :

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_hospitals_in_Malaysia

scroll down to government hospitals in penang ( the last one on the list) ....and you'll see why i just burst out laughing like hell few minutes ago....... seems to be a suitable place for me to start work......

aku marah!!!.....

now, ingat abe sorang boleh marah aku pun boleh marah, kenapa aku marah? ha ni aku nak cerita. just got back from the hospital post call ler ni, and lay on my bed (not really mine but B&Bnyer) then i went to our beloved cerita kita website, aik? perodua kelisa from the viewpoint of what's that guy's name kelly clarkson? whatever, ok let's see and i spotted the video when paul tan's site came onto my screen. even better then i clicked on it, watched it and i can't believe that this few minutes of video clip awaken me from sleep deprivation as a result of my on-call last night. what the? afiq ada so i can't really say those bad words, i try to see it from neutral point of view and these are what i can think of, not in importance or chronological order:
1. what was his point? that kelisa is a crap car? assuming there was no other missing part of the video i'm sorry but just couldn't see it. hammering the car body? what is he trying to prove that the material is not strong enough? i wanna see it done on so-called upper class luxury car, wonder kemik ke tidak. ok let's see that if he wanna prove that the metal made of the car is not as solid as should be and if u were in crash with it u crumpled to death instantly, that's why it's top speed was what 85mph!! so if u crash at top speed of this car would be equivalent to supposedly more solid allegedly better material car at it's top speed. F=ma, mass and accelaration. it's a matter of compensation!!!!
2. no soul, no passion, no flair....what a full of crap!!! this guy should see the whole picture and within context. if it's a developed country made car, well fair enough coz they have the luxury of wide marketing and establishment that the whole world couldn't deny. as for us on the other hand, who exactly the car market targeted at, us malaysian people who rata-rata struggling days and nights working our asses off just to keep on living at just enough level and couldn't afford expensive luxury cars, so cheap cars come at an expense of simplicity and basic machinary functions with not much aesthetic value or passion which the whole point being to show off skills of the designer and creator, which by the way not the main reason the car is made for. believe it or not cars like these have made many many malaysian people can own cars and get them mobile throughout the country. with so many cars now on the road in malaysia particularly in the big city like KL, JB, Penang and mersing, people find this car really handy. if he value sangat passion mende-mende alah tu semua ha cuba buat kereta dgn limited budget and for cheap price at the same time maintaining it's spirit of car manufacturing.
3. meh sini aku nak tengok kereta rover kena gantung dgn tertonggeng with 1 tonne weight tied up to its BUMPER, tertanggal ke idak? fine if he wants to compare it's safety features and by doing that will show that luxury or at least better car than kelisa won't cause trauma as much as the others in bad events, fine that's a fair point for those who considering to buy it, but what this test trying to pull? me tak paham and the explosion scene just to make it's end more dramatic ke apa? cuba try kat kereta lain, i wonder if this is how the show conclude the car is not worth at all to own as i don't really watch it (indeed i'm glad that i didn't) .
4. my opinion that this guy's opinion about the car is simply a bias one, why? this is how rich and wealthy teramat people would think as they have choices. maybe kelisa is not good enough for the english road, not yet anyway but remember there's always room for improvement. japanese and korean were ridiculed when they first imitated and modified western technology in their own car manufacturing but now their products are everywhere. to malaysian car manufacturer this is only the first step towards success and to that jeremy clarkson guy in spirit of freedom of speech i'd like to say once a penjajah always a penjajah..........to malaysians don't discourage each other, we had enough outside people who do so to us all the time. the last thing that we should do is undermine ourselves which sadly to say kinda inert to us and no wonder very few malaysian doctors kat sini yg successful despite being known to be hardworking and reliable people, don't you think? i'm patriotic after all!!! damn now i'm too excited and angry to sleep!!!!!

Belilah Barangan Buatan Malaysia

Tup-tup... TEST!!! TEST!!! 1... 2... 3... HELLO..... (mic test)

Belilah wahai umat Barangan Buatan Malaysia !!!!!

JANGAN MALU-MALU!!! JANGAN SEGAN-SEGAN!!! MURAH-MURAH!!!! LELONG-LELONG!!! CEPAT-CEPAT!!!

nak lagi :::

http://paultan.org/archives/2005/12/19/jeremy-clarkson-annihilates-the-perodua-kelisa/

http://www.verdictoncars.com/jsp/vocmain.jsp?lnk=201&model=848&

description=Perodua%20Kelisa

http://www.alexallied.com/what-the/a-criticism-on-malaysian-car-manufacturers

http://www.wisebuyers.co.uk/index.jsp?guide=reviews&page=reviews&no

=2&make=Perodua&model=Kelisa&revid=848

how dare u king kong!!!!

a week to remember ( cewah!)

special thanx to the people who were involved in the ballon blowing session (for once it had a theme)

Dah lame gila aku tak memblog-kan diri , well probably about a month or so , may be more, owing to the absence of activities due to the absence or lacking of certain people associated with abundant-ness of activities. First to leave Cork was Shaznay on a bus bound to Limerick ( 2 weeks) then continuing on in Tralee for another week , then it was Emmarina’s journey back home to Malaysia for a month or so, Paan on the other hand was sent up to some hospital in Navan, while yours truly got what your truly deserved ; 2 week rotation in some kampong in north cork. Funny that after such hype in the weeks preceeding to the departures, we really really did have so much fun and for it to come to a rather sudden and abrupt stop, your truly did need some adjustment. For once, I realised how dependent I was on Shaznay’s cooking skills – it took me almost 30 minutes or so start the bloody cooker ( and bare in mind people, the cooker in house is some brand-less early 80s cooker, NOT the new ones you see in your respective houses).

Nak mintak tolong pawi suruh pasangkan api , malulah pulak, so terpaksalah aku relatively bertungkus-lumus cube pasang api dgn lighter. My problems did not only stop there, negotiating our food cupboard pulak satu hal. Believe me people, our food cupboard IS well stocked. We probably have every single type of seasoning or powder under the sun – even more then kedai FAraj jual ayam tuh. The only problem was that the countless serbuks were not labelled – and for some reason they all look relatively the same and the only distinguishing feature is probably the smell. Nak cari serbuk curry pon payah, lagi lagi aku ni yang jarang masak, call me stupid or what , but on the first day of cooking by myself, I actually had problems identifying the serbuk kari among other serbuks available in our cupboard – tak ingat how the serbuk curry actually smelt like!!!

Well my GP attachment was PAIN, excruciating. This was probably due to the single fact that I was sent to some kampong. If the objective was to sent me to some rural area, then they really succeeded in doing so as the village I was sent to was really really RURAL , as in RURAL, RURAL. The soap Coronation Street pon probably has a bigger set then the town I was sent to. My day would start at 1030 and go on till about 630 or so. In between that we would travel to another village about 30 minutes away from the town, were my GP has set up sort of a community clinic for the village. Travelling in his 4WD was indeed an experience and THAT was intresting, as the road was really of rural standards ( read: lecak and lopaks , slit is a norm in those areas) . Throughout the whole experience, I gained valuable knowledge – eg. how to differentiate between a cattle farmer and a horse breeder by body odour. The people of the village were very nice - some thought we were Christian missionaries , other asked whether we were Japanese tourists coming to see cattle ( TO SEE CATTLE, WTF???).

top : breakfast in the morning ( so malaysia), bottom : sri enjoying some turkish delight

About 2 weeks in the kampong, I was probably on the verge of suffering from farm-stress. It felt really good to actually set foot again in cork city, to smell some smoke and pollution, and to see those traffic lights. Punyalah gian nak pergi rumah sri , I couldn’t but wait to get home as fast as possible on that day. Sampai-sampai, shaznay tak der kat umah, called him, and said that he was at some bar with Valessa – KONON-KONONlahkan. Later during the day had dinner at Scoozi dengan Emmarina and after that headed to Sri’s house where everyone was there.

at agee/uncle house for aqila's party

Little did I know that those Muslims were planning a surprise birthday gathering at Sri house the next day. And obviously being NAÏVE and VERY innocent indeed your truly fell into the trap macam babi hutan gemuk masuk perangkap
. I must say that I really enjoyed the birthday party, although you guys shouldn’t have

awwwwwww...........

The food was really-really great ( honestly I really liked everything) and TO ME THE MOST IMPORTANT THING WAS to have everyone there for that gathering. Pada aku ,having everyone there was more important that the actual birthday . I must say that it was rather a not so ‘smooth month or two’, and the gathering sort of help lighten up things – if I may say so

awwwwwwww.........

It would take ages to mention names, so thank you to everyone for the great party ( especially tuan rumah)



The next few days was filled with visits to Costa, twice to Istanbul kebab (the Turkish delight is good- betul tak shaz??), a walk down memory lane in UCC, Costa and twice to Smith’s toys to get a present for Aqila . Again, had a gathering at Uncle/Agee’s house for the birthday. Mungkin sebab lame tak ada gathering, everyone was in the mood to pose for the camera. Had a fun taking pictures from all angles, macam-macam posing pon ade. The session probably unleashed the supermodels among everyone ( maklumlah lama tak gather) and also seorang atan. I must say that digital cameras can make people do wonders ( betul tak siti?). At this moment, I have to say I’m churning saliva ( honestly) like a dog as I’m reminiscing about Leia’s orange cake which we had one day which was sooooo-lah sedap.

perkara-perkara berbangkit yang lain :

• abe's fart ( to DIE for)
• emergence of a new style of camera posing ( the ATAN-look)
• how someone nearly froze to death in my house ( sorry!!)
• wings or no wings
• idrus

fixing aqila princess coupe

Well aniways all in all, the week was indeed a great one. The food was great and everyone was there. Time is changing soooooooo-lah fast, that I not did even realise that it has been 4 years since 10/03/2002, and next year it will be 5 years since 10/03/2002, and 5 years after that, I’ll be 30 ( most likely by then I’ll be buncit and fat with cushingoid like facies driving some torn down second hand rimless perodua kacil)- hopefully NOT-lah kan. I can’t see myself in 6 years time, but one thing I have to say is that I’ll definitely remember this week

awwwww............tisu tisu ...mane tisu.........

org buta